I woke up this morning, looked out the front door - and couldn't see a thing past a few feet from the stairs: heavy fog shrouded everything … even totally hiding the bright lights from the Space Age Truck Stop, across the freeway. The endless freeway traffic could clearly be heard - but that was it. I started praying for the travelers, while being thankful we were not part of the dicey situation:
Holland showed me internet pictures of flooding at the RV Park in Clatskanie-OR … that forced evacuations, and caused damage to dozens of trailers and other vehicles - that took place this morning. The flooding was caused by rising waters due to an atmospheric river, breaking a 100-foot section of a levee around the Clatskanie River, according to Corey Padrón, director of Columbia County Emergency Management. The Clatskanie High School is now the primary shelter for those affected, with the city of Rainier offering temporary shelter for those with RV's. The emergency response includes crews from the Clatskanie Fire District, Columbia County Search and Rescue, and the Columbia County Sheriff’s Office. Tides are expected to return later in the day and could bring higher water levels, with first responders relocating RV's from flood-prone areas as a precaution. The situation is being monitored closely, and residents are advised to stay alert and follow local officials' guidance.
Before we left CA, a few weeks ago; Holland was thinking about renting a space in that RV Park, because I did not want to come back to this region; thankfully, he changed his mind - and thank the Lord, that His loving protection over me is endless (even when I am gripping about reroutes to places, I'd rather not be … His eye is always on me, and He shadows me with His wings).
So, this morning - even before I knew about the Clatskanie flooding, my thoughts were coming to grips with being here, in this spot, possibly longer than Holland is thinking. While I was sipping my coffee, I mentioned that to Holland, & he said, "So what are you saying?" I said, "What I am saying is the I give - I cry "Uncle!" I know when to give up the fight. Remember what I said in CA before we pulled out of there? I said then, that I had the feeling we'd be in WA longer than you're thinking - possibly a year. Maybe longer. I'll probably die in Longview, because no matter how many times I try to escape … I keep getting dragged back. I get the feeling the Ruach HaKo'desh will keep me in an apache leg lock until I give; so, I give. And that's why I also said before leaving CA, that I would be as good as gold once we got back here: I don't have to like the situation, but I don't want to be limping through life either, because I insist on wrestling with Elohim's decisions. And I don't want to be endlessly gripping about, it either. I know how to gracefully let go when locked in an endless tussle."
Life is short. I don't want to go out with a bang … I want my spirit to slip out of my skin peacefully. It has struggled enough through this Life - it deserves a peaceful rebirth, when that time comes.
The ancient, famous wrestling match highlighted in Genesis 32:22-32, is significant as it symbolizes Jacob's physical & spiritual struggles relating to self-reliance, throughout his life: both with others, and with Elohei. It represents a transformative moment where Jacob not only receives a blessing - but also a new identity as Israel, which means "he struggles with God". The narrative illustrates that personal encounters with Elohei often involve struggle, vulnerability, and perseverance, highlighting that divine blessing can come through wrestling with life’s challenges and with God Himself.
And maybe … just maybe, here - where I fervently do not want to be - is where I will come to the end of myself to become the person Elohim knows me to be, to fulfil the purpose I keep endlessly longing for. Perhaps in that metamorphosis, lays the peace that has always eluded me.
The blessing to come, is what my main focus will be on in 2026, while here. Endless self-care & personal growth, that will reap endless benefits.
Today is also National Pi Day, which celebrates the mathematical constant נ, that represents the ratio of a circle's circumference to its diameter. Pi is an irrational and transcendental number - approximately 3.14, but its digits never end: its decimal expansion goes on infinitely (endlessly) without repeating.
{{Pi Day Has An Unexpected Origin, And It Started With Pie
~Rin Velasco - USA TODAY NETWORK - New England
https://www.usatoday.com/story/entertainment/holiday/2026/03/13/pi-day-march-14-origins/89134038007/
Pi Day is celebrated annually on March 14, because its numerical date aligns with the first three digits of the mathematical constant נ, 3.14.
And in some places the celebrations of Pi Day are a little nerdy.
The Massachusetts Institute of Technology has a tradition where the school will usually release decisions on college admission on Pi Day, according to their website, in keeping with their characteristics as a STEM-focused school.
Here's what you should know about Pi Day and why its celebrated.
Is Pi Day a national holiday?
Yes, Pi Day is a national holiday, as it was made so by the U.S. House of Representatives when the governing body passed a 2009 resolution that recognized March 14 as National Pi Day.
Who started Pi day?
The late physicist Larry Shaw started celebrating Pi Day to bring his coworkers together and have fun in 1988 while working at the San Francisco science museum, the Exploratorium, according to the museum's website.
Pi Day: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pi_Day
He created cute traditions like bringing in a table of fruit pies and having boombox parades while reciting the digits of Pi and singing "Happy Birthday" to Albert Einstein, who was born on March 14.
"Pi Day became an annual Exploratorium tradition for staff and the public, and the idea snowballed into something much bigger," the website said. "Now it’s celebrated by math lovers and educators worldwide."}}
On the back of that silly celebration acknowledgement, harsh realities were also acknowledged.
When the world careens endlessly towards a downward spiral - we, who know better, must always take the high road & keep our hearts pliantly soft … trusting our Father to deal effectively with the madness:





























