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Saturday, April 18, 2026

WHO GETS ACCESS~Self-Care 2026; Castle Rock-WA

 

Yesterday I agreed to work with Holland on his weight loss, so he could get the surgery he's been wanting for the past 3 years - today, I realize that he's really not serious about losing weight … which means there will be no surgery happening; he'll go from doctor to doctor, fight with everyone who tries to give him helpful suggestions - and he'll find a way to make himself the victim; without recognizing his own self-sabotaging. He wants instant results without putting the work in to achieve the end goal.

To effectively lose weight, you  have got to cut back on the calories. Yes, activity is necessary … but, ultimately the fatty foods, the sugary goodies, the comfort eating … has got to be stopped. He's already arguing his doctor's suggestions - and getting snarky with me, because I'm in agreement with the doctor's suggestions.

So, I'm removing myself from the scatter fire fallout.

Who get access.

My ears have gone deaf: I don't want to hear the self-sabotaging gripes.

My phone is muted: I'll look at it if, and when, I feel like it … and I may, or may not return the notifications. It will more than likely be ignored, because peaceful vibes right now, is what is most important.

I'm going to studiously stay in my own lane: he can go it, alone, careening down the DIY Flying Eagle dead-end freeway like a squirrel on crack - I choose to go the peaceful route that actually leads somewhere, with tangible results.

If he wants directions - he can pick up the Road Map himself and read the details:

And I will continue to earnestly pray that he practices separation of another sort - that will be extremely beneficial, on all fronts.

Bloodlines are not an exception to the Rule.
When to Sever Ties With Toxic Family Members
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JIJTEuNN1XM)

This line of thinking leads directly into the pope instigated fight with Trump - highlighting this recent Daily Signal BBC footage:

Mehek Cooke: Media Hypocrisy, the Pope, and the Limits of Moral Authority on War: 
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wNW4nDwgCYw)

Mehek is correct in her assessment, and I will go further in stating that (1) the pope is not God - regardless of what the catholic religion,  believes (2) the pope is not the authority on anything concerning America - The President of America is - who happens at the moment, to be Donald J. Trump (3) the pope is not teaching the Gospel; the catholic religion has fully embraced islam, and is openly castigating Jews & Christians (4) the pope is certainly not holy, as the religion itself is anything, but; especially now that it has aligned itself with  islam.

Resetting my peaceful atmosphere, I picked up my WIP, and got back to that … while doing a bit of footsie workout under the table 😉

The Darebee Seated Calves workout is also known as calf push-ups, & activate the soleus muscle that runs at the back of your calf from your Achilles tendon to your knee. Research has shown that despite the fact that the soleus is only one per cent the body's weight, it is capable of raising its metabolic rate during contractions to easily double, even sometimes triple, the whole-body carbohydrate oxidation (refers to the total amount of carbohydrates = glucose, fructose, maltodextrin, etc.; being burned for energy by the entire body at a given time). The result is you get a pretty decent energy burn without having to leave your seat.

Seat Calves Workout = a ct. of 30 EA Set x2
Muscles Worked~Sore Feet Workout; 10 reps EA Set x2

The Darebee Sore Feet workout: whether we are sitting down, or standing all day - our feet take a pounding. They are subject to wear & tear, soreness, aches and pains, and get less TLC than any other part of our body. These exercises is where we can make amends for this oversight. Good foot health means improved circulation and a great feeling of personal well being.

2026 is going to be dedicated entirely to my self-care; I had let that slide while trying to build a life with a new husband & find ways to strengthen this marriage. It is abundantly clear that Holland does not share in that necessity - or, for that matter, concerning any necessities that would make his, my, and our life together happier or better.

Self-Care involves the whole being, in it's entirety: body (physical), soul (emotion), & spirit (faith) - this is what I'll be working on this year. Holland can join me, or not; but nothing and no one is going to divert me anymore. My lifespan gets shorter with every passing day … and there's no guarantee that my lungs, or heart, will keep me alive second by second: so, it is imperative that I keep my main focus on the end goal for me … I intend to get Home.

I enjoy my life as I walk this Earth, but this is not my Home. And when my time here draws to an end, I intend to get Home. That is my goal. That has always been my primary concern - especially when solo loboing. I can't afford to get side-tracked anymore by ridiculousness; or side-railed by evil intentions.

I've always been very careful about who has access to me, and when.

It's time to be that intentional, again.

So …

My ears have gone deaf when it comes to self-sabotaging antics.

My phone is muted until Elohim prompts me to actually turn it over and look at the screen.

I'm going to studiously stay in my own lane where the scenery isn't murky, the atmosphere is peaceful, and Life's ride is enjoyable.

Friday, April 17, 2026

AUDACITY~Self-Care 2026; Castle Rock-WA

April 17th: BRRR!! 35-freakin' degrees, this wet and cold morning 😒

I was up early because I needed to be in Longview, with Holland, at a medical appointment, for a knee X-ray & a specialist consultation, following. Last week, his regular doctor saw him, & set up an appointment with a specialist to discuss options for his knee pain.

Longview Orthopedic Associates, Longview-WA from Toutle River RV Resort, Castle Rock-WA; 19 min. (19.2 mi.) via I-5 S
Longview Orthopedic Associates; #625 9th Ave, Longview, WA
We took the elevator up to the next floor.
[Acknowledgment] took place, here.
I liked this …

I was surprised he'd asked me to go with him: he's been shutting me out of these appointments, since Day 1, stating clearly that his life situations "are none of your business". I was also surprised to see that, when filling out the forms, he put my name down as Emergency Contact, with [Wife] tagged onto that - a full-on acknowledgment (finally) of my place in his life: at least for this particular situation. I was glad for both. I mean … we are still legally married, and it's important that I'm clued into his medical information; as well as being the #1 Person to be called if any medical issue arises. His family - the people he threw me over, for, certainly won't be there for him when the chips are down.

If this separation has finally broken that wall down, there is hope for more progress. I think he's been thinking a lot … seeing, and understanding that I am not backing down anymore. I meant it when I said the nonsense has to end. Before, when he threatened separation, I was emotional. But things changed this time when it became crystal clear that nothing would change unless I flipped the script - not only for his sake, but also for the sake of US. He was more than a little startled to note that I was capable of cutting him out of the character cast, and moving on. I had told him, repeatedly over the years, that I could  … and would … do that, if pushed too far - and with no regret; but he didn't believe me, until it happened.

I learned during my widowing years that peace is the most important thing in my life now; and people that disturb that are usually gonna be kicked to the curb if they don't straighten up & start behaving. I have no more time for bullies. I make no more time for sanctimonious bullshit, in hopes of salvaging self-centered, dead-end relationships (family, friend, or wishy-washy foe). Life goes by, way to fast, and I don't have anymore days to waste on people who do not value my place in their life. I make no more room for fantastical bullshit blame games aimed in my direction - and glossed over, for everyone else. EX: I went 1 time to his uncle's church with his cousin, who invited me. I went to see if his uncle bob was the ogre Holland makes him out to be: he was ( and then some!); I never went back. I went 1 stinking time - and have never been forgiven for going - that was 3-1/2 years ago; Holland will throw that offense into every single argument. So, when he started again a couple weeks ago, I said, "Hold on! You keep beating me up verbally about that 1 time I went to bob's church with Crystal - 1 time, Holland! But Jake goes every Sunday, & you don't ride his back about it. Lana had Scott's funeral there, and you didn't go - for that very reason … but you're not tongue-lashing her; No! Instead, you pull up a chair at her table, drinking coffee with her and Jake with no penalizing condemnation, at all, for their attendance there. So, please! Stop with the self-righteous spiel! Shout at them what you're shouting at me - otherwise, stop. Just stop." And when he started with, "You just hate everyone!" I shook my head, saying, "The redmill's aren't [everyone], Holland - they may be, to you: but not to anyone else. And I don't hate them - I just don't want to have anything to do with them. Tell you what … I'm tired of this same old argument, about the same ridiculous people. You're finding fault in me where there is none - just so you don't have to deal with the realities of your crappy "family"; you're treating me badly because you [don't want to cause waves with the family]. I'm really tired of it all - the waves you are causing with us is seriously eroding whatever it is that we have between us; trying to survive. So, why don't you go live with the people you keep complaining I'm keeping you from, and give us both some peace. Go back to the life you keep complaining you want to [get back to]. Just go. And don't hurry back. I don't want to live with a man who feels he'd rather be anywhere - but here, missing out on whatever you think marriage is cheating you out of. I don't want to do this, anymore. I don't want to feel like a burden you need to bear, anymore."

And I didn't feel any regret at all, in saying any of it. I meant it. Every word.

So, we are separated.

And it's been real peaceful, here.

But he's been missing me.

And doing some thinking.

He thought I'd be sad - but I'm not. He thought I'd be waiting breathlessly for the phone to ring … or blowing his phone up with cries to come back - but I'm not. He's confused about my behavior - I'm not. I warned him that when the need for peace outweighed the constant chaos … I'd go solo lobo; breathing easy; softening up again; trusting that Elohim is at work, trusting that what's meant for US won't pass us by - doing what's best for me, if he's so willing to let go of WE … to hang on to a Past that cut him loose a looong time ago.

I was glad he invited me to sit with him this afternoon. I was glad he publicly listed me as his wife. But I'm not going to fold that easily: this time, I want the feel-good-behaviors to be permanent; not just a temporary flight of fancy to get back in my good graces.

Whatever will happen will happen, & I'm letting Elohim set the pace. We can’t save anyone - and some people will defiantly pass up grabbing at the life preserver ring, to try to brave the waves of Life, alone: so, we hand them over to Yeshua, and leave them there. That doesn't mean we don't love them anymore - it just means that we have chosen not to drown in the waves, with them.

Before we left the medical building, he'd been given a cortisone shot in his knee (praise the Lord!), was told to shed 40 pounds (Holland nodded to me that he remembered I'd told him that same thing months ago, in Coalinga-CA, when he was talking knee surgery), and was told he needs to stop the nicotine chews: I received another acknowledgment nod. For the same reason. I said that I'd join him in the dieting: a 40 pound weight loss would be beneficial to me, too - and he won't feel like he's in the struggle, alone.

However, on the way back to Castle Rock, we did stop for one last tasty indulgence before the serious weight loss undertaking, tomorrow:

Turtle Pecan Cluster Blizzard - YUM

I did enjoy the Day out: no arguments. No fighting. But - I was thankful, too …  to climb up the front door steps of my little home, cross the threshold, and feel gently welcomed & embraced by peaceful vibes that relaxed my entire being. My life isn't perfect, right now; and my little home isn't picture-perfect like the homes shown on some of the Blogs I have been visiting over the decades. But, it's mine, & it's perfect for me: it's a place where I can fully be myself - where I can have the audacity to unwind in whatever manner I choose. Where I can just be.

I finished eating my chow mien … then, did a kettlebell workout.

Thai Chicken Chow Mein - I have truly missed this!

If you’ve been wondering whether kettlebell training is safe or appropriate for a 69 year old woman, the short answer is yes - it’s not only safe but genuinely transformative.

Here are some of the main benefits seniors will experience:

Improved Grip Strength: Essential for daily tasks like opening jars, carrying bags, or getting up from chairs.

Better Balance and Stability: Exercises like goblet squats challenge stabilizers and coordination.

Stronger Hips and Legs: Deadlifts and squats reinforce glutes and quads, making climbing stairs or rising from chairs easier.

Core and Postural Strength: Every kettlebell lift, demands spinal alignment and core bracing; improving posture.

Increased Bone Density: Loading movements strengthen bones, critical for reducing osteoporosis risk.

Mental Confidence: Knowing you can lift, carry, and move with ease builds psychological resilience.

The Darebee Full Swing workout is a workout that takes a seemingly simple move and through three basic variations challenges every major muscle group in the body. Perfect for those days when you want to do some resistance work but want a change from the dumbbell routines.

Here are essential safety considerations before starting:

Start light and focus on form. Technique first, then load.

Maintain a flat back and engaged core during deadlifts and carries.

Breathe deeply, exhaling through effort (standing up, lifting) to create natural bracing.

Avoid overhead pressing until you have strong shoulder mobility and stability.

Clear your training area to prevent trip hazards.

Listen to your body. Discomfort is fine; sharp pain is not.

Muscles Worked
Kettlebell Upright Rows~Aim for 12 reps x2
Kettlebell Swings~Aim for 12 reps x2
Kettlebell Sumo Squat~Aim for 12 reps x2

Then, I snuggled in my nicely warmed bed, to get lost in the pages of  Clive's current Fargo adventure; and sipped hot cocoa while waiting for the sandman to arrive.

Thursday, April 16, 2026

VAL'S LUNCHEON MEAT CHEF SALAD Recipe; Castle Rock-WA

I know the title doesn't sound very appealing - but, this salad really is a satisfying bowl of a full meal deal.

A Chef Salad was what my taste buds & finicky tummy was wanting … so, that's what I gave them.

I admit that going into town after a true chef salad would have been what most people do … but, I am not like most people; I kinda do my own thing: plus, the weather threw a serious kink into the entire day - skimpy snowflakes were predicted & expected, but Mother Nature seems to be on a perpetual drunken binge, lately:

Snow didn't show - but it's frosty cousin, hail, did. In full force; Toutle River RV Park-WA

I had turkey meat which could be subbed for chicken: so, that was pulled from the freezer & thawed out (wicked with paper towels after thawing). And I had Budding Pastrami luncheon meat, that would have to stand in for the bacon; and Oscar Meyer sliced Ham luncheon meat that could sub for the ham.

So, I got busy prepping for supper before I even had my morning coffee.

I didn't put the salad together until suppertime - so, that is how the recipe is written: you can make it immediately, if that suits your Day 😉

Val's Luncheon Meat Chef Salad Recipe

3 eggs * 2 c. Water * 2 pkg's Budding Pastrami * Oscar Meyer Ham luncheon meat, 5 slices * 2 c. cooked Turkey, cubed * a chunk of Cheddar, grated * 3 Mozzarella Cheese Sticks, grated * 1 head of Iceberg lettuce * 1 Red Onion, peeled & sliced * 2 med-size Tomatoes, chunked * Salad Dressing of choice

1 sm. Saucepan * 1 Kitchen Knife * Kitchen Scissors * Vegetable Grater, upright style * 1 ct. 2-Gal. Ziploc baggie * 3 Soup bowls * 1 Lrg. Salad Bowl * Supper Plate & silverware

1) Place the eggs in a small pan, add water to cover. Boil the eggs for 6 minutes; remove from water & place in a bowl - refrigerate for a couple hours. Then shell, and slice.

2) With kitchen scissors, slice the luncheon meat; place in a bowl & wrap - refrigerate until suppertime.

3) With an upright vegetable grater, grate the cheeses; place in a bowl & wrap - refrigerate until suppertime.

At suppertime, I tore a head of Iceberg lettuce into a 2-gal. Ziploc & added all the ingredients - crimping the baggie closed, and tossing well. Then, I dumped the salad mixture into a large bowl for serving.

Tonight's Supper Salad - Val's Luncheon Meat Chef Salad.

The salad came together quickly - and I snacked on it until bedtime. It was tasty enough to warrant a repeat 🥗😊

Today was a very slow Day 🐌 - the weather was cold & wet 💧, and my knees ached … so, all I basically did was make a supper salad, cruise the internet 💻🌐, make air-waves contact with friends 📱, & read a couple chapters of a Clive Cussler novel ☕️📕

Wednesday, April 15, 2026

DISRESPECTFUL; Val's Luncheon Meat Chef's Salad~Castle Rock-WA

Today was a very slow Day - the weather was cold & wet, and my knees ached ... so, all I basically did was make a supper salad; I prepared the eggs, meat, & cheese before morning coffee, and refrigerated it until supper time:

Boiling 3 eggs for my supper salad; & preparing the meats & cheeses for my supper salad. Packaged Pastrami (2 pkg's) & 5 slices of Ham luncheon meat, were sliced with scissors - placed in a bowl & wrapped; 2 c. cooked Turkey cubes were thawed out - wicked with paper towels when thawed; a chunk of Cheddar & 3 Mozzarella Cheese Sticks were grated with an upright vegetable grater - placed in a bowl & wrapped. The boiled eggs were also placed in a bowl & refrigerated until suppertime.

Then, I sipped my coffee ☕️ while I reread an article that showed up in my newsfeed last night.

It is really NOT okay!!!

And it is selfishly disrespectful to the person who has passed.

An AI Version of Your Person? The article is posted below ⬇️

It actually freaked me out, truth be told 😳

And kinda borders on insanity 😵‍💫 - a widowing person's person is d.e.a.d.: there's no more conversations with them! A widowing person needs to heal … staying focused on things better left alone, does not help with the healing process. WTH are these [therapists] thinking in allowing these unhinged widowing people to go down this rabbit trail???

When my 1st husband, Bob, passed from this life to the next, in 2018 - I grieved. Hard; for 4 years. But I didn't lose my mind! I knew he was gone & never coming back: I would never see him again. I would never hear him, again. To attempt to do so, was taboo; from a spiritual understanding, it is forbidden. From a wellness understanding, it is not at all helpful to stay stuck in grieving.

What helps with grief is understanding that you bury the dead & get on with living: that part of your Life has ended, and you have to start rebuilding a new life.

Getting caught up in an unhealthy & totally delusional fantasy is not helpful.

This is full-on spiritism.

This is conversing with demonic forces! 👹 

This fantasy is disrespectful to the person who passed from this life to the next - their spirit has the right to be left alone; in peace.

The grieving widowing person has a right to real help; not to become a scientific project for an unscrupulous money-grabbing [therapist].

Elon was right is stating that this thing "will take on a life of it's own & eventually be uncontrollable."

Encouraging this type of hype is sick:

{{An AI Version of Your Person? An AI Business for grieving people: they will create a personalized program where AI takes tons of data about someone who has passed – their email, voicemail, text messages, additional info that showed their personalities, desires, tendencies in what decisions they would make in various scenarios. etc. The program takes this info, and creates an AI “video” of the person, so that you can talk with their loved one as if you are talking on Zoom 🗣️ You can have a full on conversation, because the AI program has taken the personality of the person, and will predict what their responses, thoughts, etc. will be in your conversation. The program was created for therapists working with grievers to help them through the grief process, and is done under supervision and guidance of a therapist.}}

Just as I was finishing my morning coffee, it got a little noisy here … snow didn't make a showing, as anticipated when I went to bed last night - but, it's frosty cousin, hail, did arrive. In full force:

Hail broke loose around 11.30 noon; Toutle River RV Park-WA

That went on for about 20 minutes, while I read an article that popped on on my newsfeed as the hail pelted Independence - and just like the previous AI mention, this one doesn't bode well either, for those affected by the Imagery fantasy 💻 

I've already been wondering how much of what I see online, is actual human beings - some things just seem to be {off} at times, like a malfunction glitch 🧐🤔

None of this is okay.

{{Mark Zuckerberg is building an AI clone of himself to talk to staff. Why the Meta move raises uncomfortable questions about the future of work

~Story by Chris Clark

"Mr. Zuckerberg's AI clone will see you now."

It may sound like something from a Silicon Valley satire, but could be a preview of the workplace to come.

The Financial Times reports (1) that Meta CEO Mark Zuckerberg is overseeing creation of a 3D animated avatar of himself — with artificial intelligence trained on his voice, mannerisms and thinking.

The project team is feeding Zuckerberg's public statements and strategic views to his AI counterpart so employees will feel like they're interacting with him directly.

It's a novel approach to employee communications and feedback. But behind the novelty is something more consequential.

If companies can replicate leadership digitally, they can also rethink how work gets done and who gets paid to do it.

Your boss might not be human anymore

Meta isn't alone. Companies like OpenAI and Google are investing heavily in AI systems that can mimic human communication and decision-making. What feels experimental today could become standard operating procedure faster than many workers expect.

If the experiment works, employees may not need face time with leaders or managers to get direction or input. Instead, they could turn to a digital stand-in that's always available, never tired and capable of responding instantly.

That kind of access sounds like a productivity win while charting an interesting new course for the nature of workplace relationships.

Conversations that once involved nuance, mentorship or context may increasingly be handled by systems optimized for speed and consistency. The human element doesn't disappear, but it could become less central.

Efficiency gains, or job cuts?

The bigger issue isn't whether AI versions of executives will exist. It's how companies will use them.

When companies figure out how to do more with fewer people, they eventually do.

Tasks like routine communication, administrative coordination and even some decision support are increasingly being handled by AI systems. As those systems improve, the number of roles required to support those functions could shrink.

A recent report from Digital Future at Tufts University found about 6% of the U.S. workforce is vulnerable to job cuts (2) thanks to AI, and many estimates say that number is far higher among certain roles.

The study said higher risks exist for workers in information, finance and technical services roles, among others.

What this means for your money

This shift matters because your income is tied to the market value of your work, and AI is redefining that value in real time. Routine, repeatable work is far more exposed, because it's easier to automate and scale

In contrast, AI still struggles to fully replace human input in roles relying on judgment, creativity and complex problem-solving. That includes jobs in health care and skilled trades, which are considered to be among the most AI-proof occupations (3)

"We have a large retirement cliff happening," Ian Andrews, vice president of labor relations at the National Electrical Contractors Association, told CNBC (3).

"On the union side, we are losing about 20,000 electricians a year, and we have 80,000 openings. The demand for skilled labor is at an all-time high."

Professional workers don't need to become engineers to stay competitive, but they do need to get proactive.

If you're in a professional role, start by learning how to use AI tools in your current role, whether that's automating reports, drafting content or analyzing data – so you're driving efficiency, not being replaced by it.

Meta has already been encouraging employees to adopt internal AI tools to streamline work and automate routine tasks. Workers are being asked to build their own "agents" and integrate automation into daily workflows.

Next, double down on skills AI struggles with, like critical thinking, relationship-building and decision-making under uncertainty.

Finally, treat adaptability like a core skill: stay current on new tools, experiment often and be willing to evolve your role.

Article Sources: We rely only on vetted sources and credible third-party reporting. For details, see our ethics and guidelines.

Financial Times (1); Digital Planet at Tufts University (2); CNBC (3)

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/technology/mark-zuckerberg-is-building-an-ai-clone-of-himself-to-talk-to-staff-why-the-meta-move-raises-uncomfortable-questions-about-the-future-of-work/ar-AA20Wrg0?ocid=BingNewsSerp}}

After all that fantastical BS, I turned my laptop off.

I tore a head lettuce into a large bowl; sliced 1 red onion & 2 tomatoes. Then I added the refrigerated items I had prepared, in the morning hours. The salad came together quickly - and it was good enough to warrant a repeat 🥗😊 

Val's Luncheon Meat Chef's Salad.

I wound the evening down, by immersing myself in a good read & a warming cup of cocoa. In bed. Under the heated blanket - where the chilling 38-degrees was respectfully ignored 😉

Fancy cocoa for a stormy night indulgence.
A toasty warm bed & an enjoyable read.

Tuesday, April 14, 2026

BLESSED MESS~Self-Care 2026; Castle Rock-WA

It is wet & windy here, today; looking out my windows while sipping my morning joy juice ☕️, I could hear pinecones bouncing off the roof, when winds are high.

Livingroom window; Toutle River RV Park-WA
Dining room window; overlooks I-5 freeway-WA
Today's weather - all day long.
Projected Local Weather Forecast.

The stormy weather also got me to thinking of the post I drafted & posted a week or so ago 🤔, about lighthouses & butterflies … and even though we are now separated while Holland works through his caterpillar stage, I'm sticking with what I posted - I've already gone through what he's struggling with 🌊, so I can wait him out ⚓️; and if he is the man of God that he thinks he is, then he'll eventually stop fighting Elohim & me, and get aboard with Elohim's Plan instead of chasing after his family's crazy train agenda 🎭😵‍💫

I have now officially entered into my [Lighthouse] era.
BUTTERFLY & LIGHTHOUSE SECURITIES~Shabbat Eve Thoughts 2026; Castle Rock-WA
(https://roadgypsiesvalandholland.blogspot.com/2026/03/butterfly-lighthouse-securitiesshabbat.html)

He called the other night 📱, saying, "Hey Baby, you got a few minutes?" I asked what was up, and he said, "I just thought we could talk a few minutes." Hmmm. Basically he wanted to talk 🤠; so, I listened 👂 Then I said, "I think you need to work through whatever you need to work through. You know how I feel about everything you just talked about; nothing has changed on my end. I married YOU - I did not marry [the family]. As long as you are married to [the family] you can't be a full-time husband to me. As long as you are running everyone's life … and taking on all the responsibilities of [the family], you don't have the time … or the inclination to build a Life with me. You can't have it both ways 💔, Holland. You either want to be married to them, or you want to be married to me. You need to work things out & figure out what loyalties truly rule your life." He said, "You're still my responsibility 🦁" I replied, "I don't want to be another responsibility … that position is already taken by [the family]. You need to work through whatever you need to work through, to understand what a wife is, and what my purpose in your life, is." 

Convo ended. This is a true blessed mess.

I'm not going to apologize for his lack of comprehension 🤷‍♀️ - or accept [the family] sketchy behavior 💩: I signed on the dotted line ✍️📜 to be a helpmeet 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨 … not an enabler for bad behavior 🤯

People who have known me my whole life in WA, & have stuck with me; people who have come to know me through my Blog & FB posts - and who are still here 👭 … know what I've gone through over the decades 💔🤦🏻‍♀️🦋 - and why I'm being a hardliner in this situation.

Holland will have to come to that same understanding 🤔: and he eventually will, if he ever knew me as well as he thinks he does. He will, if he gives Elohim ☝️ the ear 👂 - and Yeshua ✝️ the heart ❤️ he claims he does.

If he gives me what he is giving [the family], instead.

Every 6 months 😤! I wonder how many 70 x 7's 🙄 we've cycled through 🙏

Honestly, after coming to understand the ridiculous {family 🍋🤪} mindset, I understand why so many of them have a hard time maintaining a marital status: wives stand no chance at all 😱😭💔 when pitted against [the family] loyalty clause 🤡

Until Biblical helpmeet comprehension dawns on him 🔍📖, he'll stay handicapped and chained to the whackadoodle  [family] religiosity mentality 😈, that keeps separating us.

We'll be here - in the WA redmill stronghold region 👺 - until December & possibly longer. It's anybody's guess 😒 what will happen with US, in the meanwhile 📅

Dwight Yoakam - 'Ain't That Lonely Yet' Lyrics: 
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-3RP4mgz3V8&list=RD-3RP4mgz3V8&start_radio=1)

Morning coffee finished - and mentally backing out of ensnaring rabbit trail 🐰thoughts 🧠; I picked through my yarn cache, chose a color, and got busy designing another little "necessity" 😉, for my little home 🏠, while listening to a podcast 💻🎙️ I enjoy 😊

I'm liking this little heater Holland bought me, last time we were in Parker-AZ~about a year ago.
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F9wvfr4uOss

And, I worked a short workout in … the rain makes me sleepy, and I'm not wanting to nap - so, like a toddler avoiding the sandman's visit, I kicked my dragging tail into gear to shake the sleepiness off 😂🤣 But, I also happen to enjoy workouts & my lungs 🌬️ are cooperating today 👍

When you can spare 5 minutes ⏱️ in your Day - The Darebee 5-Minute Filler workout fits the bill 👌 - this workout improves your balance, coordination, core strength, lateral abs, hip tendons, glutes, quads and hamstrings..

This workout is a short, bodyweight‑based workout designed to be simple, safe, and accessible for people of all fitness levels. It uses no special equipment, no high‑impact movements, and no risk of muscle overload, making it suitable for beginners or those with limited mobility. Because it’s bodyweight‑only, it can be adjusted to your comfort level and pace. Hold onto the back of a chair or a table, for balance. Keep your back as straight as possible throughout the workout.

Muscles Worked
Aim for 12-15 reps EA Set x2, throughout workout.

Standing Side Leg Raises exercise is safe for a 69-year-old woman to do. These exercises are designed to strengthen the glute minimus, a small muscle situated on either side of the buttocks, which is important for hip and knee stability and lateral movement. Regularly performing lateral leg raises can improve strength, stability, and reduce the risk of injuries. It is crucial for seniors to perform these exercises with proper form and to listen to their bodies. If they experience any discomfort or pain, it is recommended to stop the exercise.

Standing Side Leg Lifts~Aim for 12–15 reps EA side x2
5 Minute Workout; toning & strengthening is the main goal.

I ate a simple supper of tenderized & seasoned steak 🥩, slow-cooked with garlic 🧄, in Olive Oil under a lid; with a baked potato 🥔, on the side: the combo was perfect food fare for today's weather mood 😊

Steak & potato supper; slow-cooked while I watched traffic & worked on a crochet WIP ✂️

Dishes done, I visited a few Blogger friends, posted a pattern post to some crafting Blog Hops … and finished the evening, relaxing with a robust western movie, filmed with a stellar cast 💻🎬:

The Big Country Movie~1958: 
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iI3UlXuewG0&t=36s)

It's been a peacefully cozy Day, all the way around, today: I choose to be a positive person, not because it’s easy - but because I’m intentional about being positive. Positivity makes life more beautiful.