KEEP FOLLOWING LIFE'S JOURNEY; Ocean Park-WA

I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired.

It's a hell of a situation that neither of us can breathe easy in environments that are good for either of us - but not both of us 😳🤔

AZ State dust devils kept us inside; sick with lung fever the entire time we were there. We were there in the winter months to "enjoy the sun's warmth": the sun came out, and it felt good - so did the devil winds, which weren't enjoyable. Holland refuses to live in AZ during the Spring or Summer months because, "it's hotter than Hell, and we won't be able to breathe there." Breathing the air in AZ, it seems, won't be happening with us … any time of the year 😔

WA State pollen - and the humid rainforest environment … which keeps the pollen at nose level, year round … has kept us inside with itchy, runny eyes & runny noses, whiplash sneezing, sore throat coughing, stuffy noses, mucus loogies, constant fatigue, and nausea since we got here in April; add the month-long rainfall, and it's been miserable ☔️😕🤮🛌😟

Despite Holland's claims that "we can breathe better, here" - ((I)) am not noticing 😡 that marvelous experience. I visually see Holland is still hawking and spitting loogies into a spit bottle, wiping his runny nose, coughing like a cat with fur ball stuck in it's throat, and eating my cough drops like hard candy; I am not seeing him breathing any easier than before 🙄, but I am noticing him burning up the highway between here and Kelso: which, is really the reason we are here, in WA State.

I am suffering asthma misery's because he can't bring himself to cut apron strings 😟

Holland has been outside our 4 walls several times a week (grocery shopping, wave watching, and weekly daytrips to Kelso-WA to visit with his family & friends, there): all totaled, I have only been able to venture outside the 4 walls, maybe, a dozen times. I am understandably cranky - I've been carrying Kleenex 🤧 around with me, e.v.e.r.y.d.a.y., for the past 6 weeks.

95% housebound - half of that, sleeping my life away, fatigued.

Full out survival mode.

I do not want to be in fight or flight mode when awake!

I want to be able to enjoy Life, fully.

WA State may be a better environment for my husband … but, it is not a [better environment] for me 😕

I've spent 95% of my time in WA, in bed because I'm worn out just trying to survive the pollen-laden-assault on my lungs ☔️🥱🌺🛌💤

I cannot effectively get this point across to Holland 😑

Hence, this morning's blowout.

It didn't need to be a huge blowout, but it was, because Holland stayed up watching YouTube videos & movies until 6 AM, and only got about 3 hours of sleep before his alarm went off at 10 AM (he laid awake for an hour rehashing the crap he fed his brain with before stumbling to bed).

He woke up cranky.

Which triggered my cranky 😭😤

And had Holland reaching for Betsy's keys, so he could beat a hasty retreat - down to the ocean to watch the waves.

Big Mama Thornton - 'Ball N' Chain' song: 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TixL6Tycgho)

WA State has never been friendly to my lungs.

There has got to be someplace in America where we can set pegs and breathe the air easily!

This running from place to place to find agreeable comfort for our struggling lungs, is ridiculous.

Looking out my window's & watching deer meander across the gravel in front of Independence this morning, I am sick of being sick and tired.

I watched 2 deer this morning; walked up behind Betsy - alongside Independence, which caught my attention; Ocean Park-WA

I am sick and tired of fighting with a husband who has the unbendable mindset of a neanderthal.

I want to be able to breathe without my lungs seizing up.

There has got to be someplace in America that will be acceptable for both of our lung issues 🙏

I want a peaceful home environment 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨

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Being strong is not something that was always clear to me, it is something that I learned along the way, in moments where I had no other option.

I remember when everything seemed to fall apart. The expectations I had for life were not met and the people I trusted the most disappointed me. It was there that I understood that I couldn't depend on others to feel complete or safe. I learned that true strength is born when you face loneliness, and instead of feeling weak, you decide to turn that loneliness into your ally.

Life taught me that pain is not an enemy. Life taught me that crying does not make you less strong, on the contrary, it gives you the ability to feel deeply and heal. In every tear lies a lesson, a reminder that, after the storm, calm always comes.

Being strong is not about keeping quiet about what hurts you, it is about speaking firmly about your fears and accepting them. It's not about pretending that everything is fine, it's about accepting that there are bad days, but not letting those days define you.

I have learned that it is not about not falling, but about how you get up. And you don't always do it immediately, sometimes it takes time, but the important thing is not to stay on the ground. I have fallen many times, I have stumbled over my own mistakes and the difficulties that life has put in front of me, but each time I have gotten up more confident in who I am.

Being strong is understanding that self-love is the basis of everything. You can't expect others to fill the gaps that only you can fill. I learned to be my best friend, to be kind to myself on my worst days, and to celebrate every little achievement, because it's those moments that remind me how much I've grown.

What taught me to be strong was life itself, with all its imperfections and challenges. And although I still have a lot to learn, I know that as long as I maintain that inner strength, I can handle anything that comes.

Keep Following Life’s Journey.

~Amira Mouzaki

Randy Stonehill - 1976 'Welcome To Paradise' ~ Full Album: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5aMlShFS6c8&list=PLPcTOx34g9XQeEtTw-2zRd8rJEs3i9Y_d)

BIBLICAL HISTORY IS FACT~Assyrian King Sargon (סַרְגוֹן), A Proven Fact

Sargon II;  rendered Sargon in the Hebrew Bible (Isaiah 20.1)

It was once claimed there was no Assyrian king named Sargon as recorded in Isaiah 20:1, because this name was not known in any other record. Then, Sargon’s palace was discovered in Khorsabad, Iraq. The very event mentioned in Isaiah 20, his capture of Ashdod, was recorded on the palace walls. What is more, fragments of a stela memorializing the victory were found at Ashdod itself.

A study by Dr. Lawrence Mykytiuk of Purdue University identified 53 Old Testament figures as verified through archaeological and historical evidence. Among these were eight kings of the Northern Kingdom of Israel and six from the Southern Kingdom of Judah. Examples include King Ahab of Israel, mentioned in the Book of Kings and on the Kurkh Monolith, and King Herod the Great and Herod Antipas, whose reigns are documented in the New Testament.

King Sargon (סַרְגוֹן): (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sargon_of_Akkad#:~:text=Sargon%20I%20was%20a%20king,(Isaiah%2020%3A1).)

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The Bible is AN HISTORICALLY CORRECT recounting of History - and that is why is was removed from American classrooms in the 1960's.

I am old enough to remember early morning school room Bible readings … before schoolroom academic lessons began.

American Schools NEED to BRING THAT 📖 BACK - and get rid of the muslim demands for prayer sessions in American schools 😡

There is REAL truths - history - in the Scriptures.

There is NO truth - historical, or otherwise - with islam or in their [holy writ]. NOTHING with islam is true … except their subjugating violence. islam is a lie from the pit of Hell; ALL of it.

SYNAGOGUE IN MAGDALA UNEARTHED

Ancient City of Magdala Unearthed in Israel: 

(https://greekreporter.com/2023/10/15/ancient-magdala-unearthed-israel/)

The synagogue in Magdala on the Sea of Galilee. A first century synagogue and one that we know Jesus taught in.

Explore Magdala: 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ln9UEHGESWQ)

~Biblical Archaeology in Ancient Israel (& Beyond); Tuesday, May 25th, 2025 @ 3:21 AM

Magdala Synagogue: (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Migdal_Synagogue)

SPECTACULAR EARLY CHRISTIAN MOSAIC~The 1,600 Y.O. Be’er Shema (Birsama) Mosaic

A spectacular 1,600-year-old mosaic, one of the most impressive ever discovered in southern Israel, was unveiled to the public in the Negev >>

The Be’er Shema (Birsama) mosaic – one of the most impressive mosaics discovered in the south of the country – has for the first time been made accessible and open to the public, in the Merhavim Regional Council complex, located in the western Negev. The approximately 1,600-year-old colorful mosaic presents 55 medallions decorated with hunting scenes, animals and scenes of everyday life. Over the past few months it underwent conservation by the Israel Antiquities Authority,  and was transferred to the council’s offices for display. This was executed in the context of the "Antiquities Right at Home" project of the Israeli Ministry of Heritage and the Israel Antiquities Authority.

The mosaic presentation was inaugurated on Sunday (25.05), in the presence of Heritage Minister Mk Amichai Eliyahu, Merhavim Regional Council Head Shai Hajaj, and Israel Antiquities Authority Director Eli Escusido. The ceremony was held with students from area schools and with neighboring community members, who enjoyed the vibrant happening of archaeological activities, creativity booths and planting new seedlings out in nature.

The mosaic was discovered in 1990 in agricultural areas south of Kibbutz Urim, At the margins of Khirbat Be'er Shema. Following this, an archaeological excavation was conducted by Dan Gazit and Shaike Lender on behalf of the Israel Antiquities Authority. Afterwards it was covered to protect it intact. “This is a unique mosaic from the Byzantine period (324-638 CE),” says Shaike Lender.

Archaeological excavation was conducted by Shaike Lender.

“It presents 55 richly detailed medallions – with mythological characters, baskets of fruit, exotic animals, scenes from everyday life, hunting scenes and more. The mosaic was clearly made by the hand of a true artist. It is comprised of small mosaic stones in a variety of colors, combined with glass and pottery to infuse it with variety.”

Mosaic Masterpiece From Byzantine Era Unveiled in Southern Israel: 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tT7wlQ-iih0&t=97s)

The mosaic was a feature within a large monastery, one which earned its sustenance by wine production. The excavation of the complex uncovered a large winepress and warehouses with storage jugs, which were produced on site. “It seems that the ancient road upon which this settlement was sited served as a kind of border between the desert and the inhabited part of the country – during the Byzantine period, and perhaps serving as such even earlier, during the Roman period. This road is actually the ancient Nabataean-Roman spice trail through the desert – at this point, on the axis connecting Halutza in the Negev with the port of Gaza. The excavation showed that this was indeed a large settlement, on the order of several hundred dunams, that served travelers needing a safe place to spend the night, offering protection from potential attacks by raiders from the local Bedouin tribes.”

“Over the ensuing years since its discovery, the mosaic floor’s state of conservation deteriorated. Given this situation, actions were taken. It was re-exposed, treated and strengthened, and transferred from its original exposed location to the Merhavim Council's enclosed compound. Now, it is fully protected from agricultural and development work, and at long last, it is presented to the public to appreciate,” said Ami Shahar, Conservation Department Head at the Israel Antiquities Authority. “Upon completion of our expert team’s intensive efforts, the results enable the public to view and appreciate a spectacular 1,600-year-old work of art.”

According to Eli Escusido, Israel Antiquities Authority Director, “The event was held as part of the ‘Antiquities Right at Home’ project developed and managed by the Israel Antiquities Authority and the Israel Ministry of Heritage, which seeks to make the legacies of the past extant in urban areas to be accessible to the public. Especially in these days, it is of great importance to reveal historical gems in the Gaza Envelope region (Otef), such that they will be visitor attractions and increase traffic to this vital area. This new site will serve the public as an open archaeological garden. Explanatory signs, an access road and seating areas were integrated into the site. I now invite the public to enjoy and to form their own impressions of one of the most beautiful mosaics ever seen here in Israel’s South, here in the northwestern Negev."

Merhavim Regional Council Head Shay Hajaj said: “This beautiful mosaic, a living testimony to life that existed in the Negev some 1,500 years ago, will be preserved here and become a focal point for visits and learning—for tourists, students, and residents from across the country. It is another chapter in the story we are writing here in Merhavim—a story that connects past, present, and future.”

~Biblical Archaeology in Ancient Israel (& Beyond); Tuesday, May 27th, 2025 @ 4:40 AM

Spectacular Early Christian Mosaic Presented to the Public in Israel: (https://www.haaretz.com/archaeology/2025-05-27/ty-article/spectacular-early-christian-mosaic-presented-to-the-public-in-israel/00000197-123e-d0e9-abd7-3fbea8ac0000 & https://www.jpost.com/archaeology/article-855613)

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These floor rug mosaics are awesome!

And perfectly preserved 👍

In 1976, I had a chance to join an archaeological dig - I had submitted my papers in 1974 … but by the time it was approved, I was married with a baby: the chance had come and gone. It would have been a lot of fun - but nothing compared to the 44 years I enjoyed as a wife, mother & grandmother.

I love History coming alive 😉

And I love naysayers being shut down 😉

PAPYRUS P66

Papyrus 66: 

(https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Papyrus_66#:~:text=%CE%B1%CF%81%CF%84%CE%B9%20(now).-,History,15%2D25%20lines%20per%20page.)

P66 IS THE OLDEST SURVING GOSPEL MANUSCRIPT TESTIMONY OF THE RESURRECTED CHRIST

According to the latest research, all of these gospels were written between AD 45 and 65.  The earliest surviving manuscripts of the gospels date to the second century. While Papyrus P52 is the earliest surviving New Testament manuscript fragment, Papyrus P66 (second or third century) is the earliest manuscript preserving a section that testifies to the resurrected Jesus (John 20:37-41). The "P" stands for "papyri," which are manuscripts written on papyrus, a reed-like plant used for writing in ancient times. The number following the "P" indicates the order in which the manuscript was registered, not its age.

John 20:37-41 - "Then saith He to Thomas, 'Reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands; and reach hither thy hand, and thrust it into my side: and be not faithless, but believing.' And Thomas answered and said unto him, 'My Lord and my God.' Yeshua saith unto him, 'Thomas, because thou hast seen me, thou hast believed: blessed are they that have not seen, and yet have believed.' And many other signs truly did Yeshua in the presence of his disciples, which are not written in this book: But these are written, that ye might believe that Yeshua is the Christ, the Son of God; and that believing ye might have life through his name."

~Biblical Archeology in Ancient Israel & Beyond; Tuesday, May 27th, 2025 @ 4 AM

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Try as they will … the demonrat society cannot erase Biblical History: Yeshua IS real - He walked Earth, and rose from the dead. He IS coming back again to reign as King Supreme 👊

Luke 8:17 - "For nothing is hidden that will not be disclosed, and nothing concealed that will not be known and brought to light."

MAIN MINISTRY IS TO IMMEDIATE FAMILY; Ocean Park-WA

David Wilkerson Debates The Jesus People:  (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qeOb02XzlM0 & https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Jj8_MZnixU)

Oh, man!

Watching this vid reminds me so much of the interactions with Holland and I when he's on a roll 🙄

Our verbal interactions usually will sound like the circular argument between Wilkerson (me) & Wise, and Hefner (Holland) 😤

He's getting better at engaging in convo's without antagonism - but the reactions to David Wilkerson's questions sounds very much like how my husband tries to justify his own - and his family's drug culture/religious activity 🤔

The 2 cannot coexist - Yeshua said, "No man can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will hold to the one and despise the other..." (Matthew 6:24)

I've stated many times that I was raised in a hippie environment.

I've also stated that I became a Christian - on my own, at age 8; my family did not know what to do with me after that. I made them uncomfortable … I wasn't vociferously preachy, but I did hang back from their activities and behaviors. I was different: I made them uncomfortable by not engaging.

Neither was I a perfect Christian: I was not spirit-filled until I was 21. From that moment forward, I walked a very narrow path.

My husband - the man I married in 1974, was not a Christian at all. He had some church related connections in his youth, because his grandmother took him to a few services. But he didn't get saved, water baptized, or spirit-filled until 1981; for him, it seemed to happen simultaneously. He is in Heaven now, with Yeshua, since December 14th, 2018.

My new husband, Holland, was raised in a religious environment - but it is a religious environment that does not have Yeshua at it's core. He knows about Him … but, he doesn't know Him. Holland's father and mother both went to a Bible College. His father was a preacher that hobnobbed with, and preached in the churches of John Hagee & John Osteen. His mother was an evangelist. Holland's father eventually abandoned his wife and children, to marry another woman: not a Christian behavior. His mother also remarried, and allowed her children to run wild, and engage in questionable activities without restraint … and too often with her acceptance and approval: not a Christian behavior. Holland was raised in a religious environment - not a Christian environment.

This lopsided {understanding} of Christianity runs through both sides of his family tree - but the redmill branch is by far the worst because they have brewed so long in the hippy-dippy religiosity that they have poison leaves sprouting from the familial limbs. No one from that familial gene pool should be preaching! I've heard his Uncle Bob preaching, and it's clear the man has no Biblical understanding or spiritual discernment. They all shun baptism by the Holy Spirit - which Yeshua clearly taught is a necessity for Christian maturity and actual ministry. The ministry is not for fame and fortune … the ministry is to spread the Gospel: the Word of God is not for sale! One cannot live a life of debauchery and every form of vice, and still consider themselves an ambassador for Christ!

I was raised a hippie, in a hippie environment. I came of age during the Jesus People Era. I read my 'One Way' Jesus People Bible for decades. But, I was never immersed into the lifestyle; that was my saving grace. MPO

I have asked Yeshua to help me understand my new husband and his family's wacky religious mindsets; and He is bringing to my attention these old Jesus People videos, to show me why Holland and I have such a gap between our understandings of Christianity.

I walk a very narrow, blank & white path.

Holland, not so much. He doesn't share his faith, with family or friends. He walks a wide and rocky path. He needs the Ruach HaKo'desh reigning in - in Elohim's timing.

I just have to trust and obey; and know that it will happen.

MPO is that the Jesus People Era was the last Revival on Earth: the awareness of Yeshua and the need for His salvation was everywhere, as the Ruach HaKo'desh began His work in lives.

And, of course apostasy followed quickly: Lucifer knows his time is short - so he wasted no time in stirring up wickedness with the counterfeit toronto awakening, that plunged religious wishy-washy people into darkness and self-delusion. Salvation was replaced with self help. The Word preaching was replaced with new age guru's sporting dreadlocks and goatees, that shouted, "You don't need to bring your  Bibles with you - just listen to me!" Religious entertainment was booked that mocked Elohim's Holy Spirit with "a blue smurf". Spiritual prosperity was equated with faux gems and white feathers falling from mega church ceilings. Worshipful hymns were replaced with self-promoting concert-style atmospheres. Christian morals were replaced with pride banner swathed gatherings, and social accepted homosexual leadership in corrupt churches.

barak hussein obama was lucifer's tool to kick-start the reset countdown to the End of Days.

I, like other spiritually aware Christians care deeply about the lost, who are not aware that they are lost. But, my husband, right now, is my main concern during these Days. Ministry begins in the Home.

THIS DAY IN 2025; Ocean Park-WA

Today is my daughter's BD; 51 years

Holland asked if I wanted to call my daughter … and I gave an empathic "No." If she wants to reach out to me, I'm good with that - but she chose this silence by telling me she "isn't interested in building a bridge" between hearts; she chose to end all contact between us in 2020 & she forbids me to even talk to my grandchildren, so she can make the first move to right this situation: I'm done running after her for acknowledgment of my existence, or begging for space at her table.

Holland doesn't understand because his family feeds on major dysfunction: I chose otherwise. I do miss my daughter & grandchildren, but they will have to make the 1st move towards me; over the past 42 years, I've had all the rejection from my daughter, that I can stand. No contact any more, is her choice.

My choice to allow her, her choice, is not made out of meanness … it is made out of a will to live happily, joyfully, and FULLY the few years I have left to walk this Earth. She has to decide for herself if she will walk those years with me. If she will allow her children (oldest, 31 & youngest, 11 in a couple weeks), to have contact with me. Until she snaps out of her funk and gets real, I will respect her choice … and, she will always occupy a piece of my heart that is hers alone.

Earlier in the morning, we had driven into Ilwaco-WA; to check out the Saturday Market, there - but we didn't see anything that piqued our interest enough to pull over and stroll through the tent area.

Temperature today, in Ocean Park-WA  BRRRR!

On our way home from Ilwaco, we stopped at David's place in Long Beach, and had a brief chat with him, his son, and DIL. They were busy with property cleanup, so we didn't stay more than about 45 minutes. We were invited to a fireside get-together at dusk - and we considered it, as we turned Betsy towards home.

Being at the beach causes my thoughts to meander through past memories here: especially today.

2 important notations for Today …

I posted them on FB after we got back home.

The fella on the right with my wolf under his leg is the man who was responsible for my daughter's BD, today:

The fella on the left, with the rott, was our friend David Hargrove - he came into our lives in 1983, fresh from a motorcycle accident in Idaho: he had ridden with several {gangs}, but the ones we knew about were the Hell's Angels, the Bandito's, & the Gypsy Jokers - Bob knew several Gypsy Jokers before we married, so he and Dave got along well. I trusted him 100% around my children & grandchildren. He became a fast friend in 1983, and was a life-long friend until his death in 2014 … on this Day - my daughter's 40th BD, then (today, this year - is her 51st BD: how is that even possible! I do not feel that old 😉). He left Earth knowing that soon our family would be blessed with a new baby: a boy! that would arrive the end of June, that year; he was happy for us - I wished he could have stuck around to meet our new grandson. David died in Ilwaco-WA & his ash urn was buried on his property alongside Sandridge Road, in Long Beach-WA

My wolf, Precious, went ahead of David in the Fall of 2013.

My Husband Bob, followed David's departure, 4 years later in the Winter 2018.

This May 24th … when my new Husband Holland, & I, drove past that little house along Sandridge Road, I am missing them all 😔❣️

When I checked my FB Page a couple hours later, there were comments and a private message:

Holland is still taking prescribed antibiotics for the gash on his calf, and they make him drowsy - so, he slept for about 3 hours … got up, stumbled into the livingroom … and promptly fell back asleep in his recliner, for another 2 hours.

I shot a text to David, informing him that we'd be staying in for the night: we do want to visit - but right now, Holland's leg healing is more pressing.

Holland relaxing with a healing nap.

He woke up long enough to eat Supper.

Then he took a shower - and went back to bed.

I'm glad his body is finally getting the rest it needs to properly heal; thank the Lord ❤️