God Knew That I Needed You

Thursday, April 24, 2025

I DON'T HAVE TIME ANYMORE; Ocean Park-WA

Minneapolis has changed its noise ordinance to allow the Muslim call to prayer, known as the adhan, to be broadcast over speakers five times a day, year-round. This makes Minneapolis the first major U.S. city to permit this practice. The change was approved unanimously by the City Council and signed into law by Mayor Jacob Frey.

The previous ordinance restricted the adhan to certain hours, but the new ordinance removes those limitations, allowing for broadcasts at any time of day.

The new ordinance allows the adhan to be broadcast publicly, meaning it can be heard by people outside of the mosque. 

The change applies year-round, not just during specific seasons or holidays.

This decision is significant because it affirms the religious freedom of the Muslim community and allows for the customary Islamic practice of calling to prayer five times a day.

BUT JEWS & CHRISTIANS ARE FORBIDDEN TO PUBLICALLY PRAY. Out loud … certainly NOT in the public square, "any time of Day". Christian Holidays are being erased from the American landscape. Jewish observances are being banned outside of private homes, and synagogues.

BUT CHRISTIANS ARE FORBIDDEN TO OPENLY PRACTICE THIER FAITH. Without jeering. Without be shouted down. Without being spit on - or physically attacked. Without being bullied in public schools. Without political mocking - or judicial reprimand.

Since the obama coup in 2009 … islam has spread like cancer through DC, Congress, the Supreme Court, religious institutions, schools - all levels, ect.

I don't have time anymore for nonsensical ridiculousness and aimless, meaningless twaddle.

We are living in seriously dangerous times.

I don't have time anymore to waste time spinning my wheels; and waiting for a place at the table in my own home.

BACK AT THE ROOMMATE STAGE: Ocean Park-WA


We are right back at the roommate stage, a.g.a.i.n.

I get so tired of this strain that drains US 🤦🏻‍♀️😟

This is the strangest relationship - and the hardest marital relationship, I've ever been party to 😳

Holland's tripped TBI 😡; that taps into my slumbering PTSD 😕

Triggered by Holland's shitty "friends" 👹: 1 in particular 😈

* Adversity Event: back to weaselly cal 👺 - and the aggravating fallout 😤 when his presence is introduced into our lives, & Holland's blatant lies 🤥 about the situation.

* Beliefs: for whatever reason, Holland called him - cal took his time getting back to Holland. Holland either called him when he was on one of the beaches … or during a late night chat session: cal has been calling back-to-back for the past week 5 times in a row, yesterday; Holland acted like he didn't know who was calling, and he thinks I am oblivious to these interactions. But I see his name come up on the phone screen - when Holland is sleeping, and his phone is turned face-up; or while we are out for a drive, and the notification flashes across the 🎼 playlist.

I've been good about it and keep mum. I have pretended I do not know that Holland has been in contact with cal, because a fight always ensues. I just want a peaceful life 🕊️, in this, the end-game of my Life.

I do not like cal; he is a little, mouthy, woman-hating, interfering presence that is distinctly unpleasant. He has made it clear that he doesn't think I am good enough for Holland … and he tries to run Holland's life. cal has a big bankroll. cal has a big, fancy boat. cal has a big, fancy house; cal has a wife he publicly subjugates: cal would love to subjugate me - that will never happen. Hence, the tension in both camps, with Holland caught in the middle.

MPO is that cal hones in on Holland's TBI, and utilizes it for his own purposes. That is not a friendly thing to do.

MPO is that Holland is more drawn to cal's lavish lifestyle, than he is to the man. When a person want's to rub elbows with $$$$$$$, they will overlook a lot of unpleasantries.

$$$$$$$ means a lot to Holland: he is always bragging about the rich & famous people he has hob-knobbed with, the fancy houses he has worked on; and the fact that his last female housemate before me, supposedly screwed around with; and had an illegitimate son, by one of marlon brando's sons (I've seen the kid, and I'm not convinced; but Holland is). For a solid year into our new marriage, he would bring banjelina and her kid into the convo at some point - Holland's earlier nickname for me, was Valerinia; I finally had enough, and said, "Do not ever call me Valerina again. Do not ever link my Name with hers again. I am not a celebrity slut - I am not a live-in-girlfriend; I am your Wife. I do not want to hear any more about banjelina and her could-be-brando kid. Money, and name-dropping, means nothing to me. I am not impressed. And I find this entire  conversation, more than a bit rude."

$$$$$$$ means a lot to Holland's family: both branches. The lure of $$$$$$$ has pretty much destroyed Holland's family - both sides; and the pull in that direction, is putting friction on this marriage.

cal is a major friction, & I do not want him in my life. At any point, for any reason.


When cal's presence is known, Holland starts withdrawing … then picks fights over stupid things - because the guilt gets to him. He knows cal is a sore spot in our marriage; but for whatever reason, he can't stop living in the Past, or insisting that I accept cal's interjection into our life: and that hard-headed, hard-nosed insistence is messing up our Present, with a very real possibility of crippling our Future.


* Consequences: we are right back at the roommate stage, a.g.a.i.n. No one is happy. Today will be awkward. The week will be struggled through, with both of us retreating 😒, drawing boundary [space] lines 😑, and speaking only when necessary 🤔

Dave Mason - 'We Just Disagree' with lyrics: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERd0VjJYgpE)

The fight was on last night 🙄, but I didn't get sucked into the lies, Holland's lame-assed behavior, or react with justifiable anger: I just went to 🛌 and went promptly to 💤. I don't feel well, and I don't have the energy for the bullshit that always involves cal, at some point. Holland may want to waste his time on cal … but, I do not. I refuse to give way to angry outbursts concerning that little weasel - and I refuse to lose sleep over a man who chooses the lure of $$$$$$$, over me.


We have a reasonably good income: I'm not against money - money is a necessity. However, I am against the love of money that lures people into an unhealthy obsession with it. Both of us were raised poor - the difference is that money... or people with money … does not run me, or rule my life. We have enough money for what we need; and I've learned over the decades, that if I need more, Elohim always provides. We are certainly not rolling in dough; but we're not begging for bread, either. I think we're doing okay.

I also know that spending time with monied braggarts, and social bullies, causes dissatisfaction. That's why my immediate circle of people are simple people with simple incomes.

2 Corinthians 9:8: emphasizes God's generosity and the provision of all needs: suggesting that wealth is not the source of security but a gift from God.

Philippians 4:19: encourages that God will supply all needs, again implying that wealth is not a source of security but a gift from God to be used wisely.

Proverbs 10:22: highlights the blessings that come with God's provision, suggesting that wealth can be a source of blessing when it is used in accordance with God's will.

We don't have any serious debt that couldn't be paid off immediately if Holland would be agreeable. MPO is that living on credit will cost you more than paying up, tightening the belt, and breathing easier with the next paycheck.

We own our home, outright 😊

We own our vehicle outright 👍

We have the freedom to pick up and GO; any time we please 👋

We eat well - perhaps, too well, by the look of us 😉

We are both retired, and can relax and take Life easy 💯

We enjoy adventures and explorations … which could be more enjoyable if Holland would stop comparing our income, home, and lifestyle to everyone else. The lure of $$$$$$ causes a great deal of unnecessary dissatisfaction that can suck the joy right out of the moment.

1 Timothy 6:10: states that "the love of money is "the root of all kinds of evils". You would think that given the Redmill & Harris backgrounds concerning the luring love of money, my husband would have some kind of understanding about the lure's destructions.

Matthew 6:24: warns against trying to serving both God and money - either will cancel the other out … ofttimes leading to destruction when the lust for money supersedes loyalty to God 🔥😔💔😭 Again, you would think after seeing families destroyed, and deaths occurring due to monetary dissatisfactions when the chasing after money overrode the chase after God, my husband would have some kind of understanding about the lure's destructions.

Ecclesiastes 5:10: points out that even wealth doesn't bring satisfaction, suggesting that the pursuit of wealth is often futile. Again, both sides of my husband's family tree show wealth - as well as the destruction wealth has wrought: those who have wealth become greedy, fearful of having their wealth stolen, and engage in shady activities to gain and keep wealth - those who do not have wealth become bitter, angry at "living hand-to-mouth", and engage in shady activities - hoping to gain that pot of gold at the end of the rainbow they chase.

Fighting over cal's interferences is not how I want to spent my waning days - I'm living on borrowed time and limited days. I refuse to give way to angry outbursts concerning that little weasel - and I refuse to lose sleep over a man who chooses the lure of $$$$$$$, over my happiness in whatever relationship he thinks we have in the moment.


So, we are right back to the roommate stage in this relationship = taking space and defusing.

Richard Marx - 'Right Here Waiting': (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p3-8TVK_D-I)

Holland can spin his wheels - and do angry burnouts, if he wants to.

Me? I'm going to get on with getting on. Life is too short to waste time spinning my wheels - or leaving smoking, angry, black marks on the road I travel. When my number is called, I want to pass through the Pearly Gates with a good report ✝️, and a peaceful aura 😇


Holland has to come to his own conclusion that cal 👺 - and that elusive pot of gold, is not worth the time, effort … or heartache 💔

Firefall - 'Just Remember I Love You' with lyrics: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lcLI8Lbef5Q)

We both know that neither one of us are going anywhere: I married for Life = "for better, or worse" 🙏 … and Holland has finally stopped 🤝 threatening divorce 🤬 every time a disagreement comes up.


But, I'd sure like to lay some new tracks ✅ and get this marriage off the crazy train trail.