A WITNESSING THAT COMFORTS; Castle Rock-WA

The other day I was asked about remarriage.

The person asking had known me in my previous life with Bob - she is considering remarriage herself: she knows how much I loved Bob and how devastated I was when wife morphed into widow. She heard me say that I could never see myself with anyone but Bob - she was surprised when I did remarry … I was surprised at how easily remarriage transpired when it arrived on the scene of my new life's turning pages, unscripted & unexpected.

She is wondering how I compartmentalize that life with this present life.

Forgive the type-o's:

Looking at my life, I see blessing after blessing. MPO is that this life feels like answered prayers.

Grand Funk Railroad - 'Some Kind of Wonderful' lyrics: 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xTuIXtXUEw4&list=RDxTuIXtXUEw4&start_radio=1)

THE OLD SCRIPT IS BEING FLIPPED; Castle Rock-WA

Yesterday was my grandson, Azariah's, 12th birthday.

This is the 1st year … in 12 years … that I have not cried with the missingness.

I credit that blessing with the presence of Holland in my Life.

It is hard to continue to show up in a life that has been seriously altered: the scenario has drastically changed. The landscape is unfamiliar. Even happy memories carry a haunting heaviness. All the newness of a New Life can be exciting & rewarding … but, it can also be very disorienting & and a bit scary when stepping into a new script unfolding on shaky ground.

Pink Flyod 'Comfortably Numb' song: 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LnQ9_uTSyBQ&list=RDLnQ9_uTSyBQ&start_radio=1)

Holland brings a freshness into my Life.

His ever vigilant protectiveness offers secure peacefulness.

He is buoyantly optimistic.

He is calmly encouraging.

His love is steady - even on black mood days.

I am no longer comfortably numb; with him all jets are firing - he introduced me to life, again. With my hand tucked into his, I feel a relaxation I can safely rest in. Year 4 is looking very good.

He is everything I need to stabilize, and balance, a life that went seriously sideways in the winter of 2018 - and was completely erased the July of 2020.

I kept (and keep) showing up.

He shows up.

The old script is being flipped 💝

Life, again, is very good 😘