Thank Elohim for His grace that carried me through today.
Allergies were giving me a migraine this morning, so I prepped for our supper meal early, so all I had to do at suppertime was put it all together & slip it into the oven at 4 PM for an hour. Easy-peasy.
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When Holland got up, I told him my face hurt with allergy pressure pushing hard on live nerves & asking him not to hold it against me if I got testy sometimes through the day. The pressure was really painful.
And he was as good as gold all Day, being as quiet as a man can be (given that he is a man & can't help that; LOL) & saying he'd make supper if I wanted to pass the baton to him - but I said, "No & thank you; I appreciate the offer & you are a good guy for offering to step into the gap, but this is a new recipe I want to try - and everything is already ready to go when it comes time to pull it together and cook it."
He is a good guy.
And he's come a long way in relationship.
I do appreciate him - but I'm not going to take advantage: my face is sore, yes … but his knee is still really painful, and I know he'd be in big pain to make life easier for me. He has a consultation in 2 weeks for an injection procedure, & hopefully something will actually get done to relieve the inflammation & allow him some relaxing quality of life that does not wrap up with searing pain at Day's end.
We are both learning to be more compliant with each other's limitations.
Bob was always there for me: no matter what - I came to him with a lot of baggage he patiently unpacked while giving me lasting security, and unconditional love. He came to me with a lot of baggage too. We were both privately dealing with emotional & physical handicaps … but, together, we learned to lean on each other to ease the burdens and make room for healing.
Holland is learning what I learned from Bob: he's relaxing in the knowledge that I'm not going anywhere: we are married & I meant it when I said, "for better or for worse". He is learning that leaning on each other does is not weakness, but rather, strength. He is relaxing in knowing that no matter what, we will weather the storms and we will grow deep roots. Together.
Childhood abandonment lasts a lifetime. It takes someone very special to wade those deep waters with you. It takes the joint effort of 2, to ford the rapids of life's hardships, handicaps, and disappointments & make it to the other side; with the satisfaction of knowing you've beat the odds, and pushed through the limitations.
He's a good guy - and I'm glad he's my guy.
Through my dining room window, I watched a little squirrel; and that redirection of focus took my focus off the face pain:
While I was watching the squirrel, Holland was cleaning his vest pockets and found yesterday's grocery shopping receipt, saying, "Hey Baby, I'm going to have to go back into town tomorrow - we were charged $25.85 for that head of lettuce we bought. I want to go into town and get that straightened out"; and I agree. It was a good size head of lettuce - but certainly not $25 worth
And, I checked my FB Page, and saw that I had a private message from a lifetime friend. I am thankful for the friends I have been blessed with - I feel privileged to have every one of them in my life: they have been anchors of open-handed friendship, genuine lovingkindness, examples of real caring, prayer partners, & true God-sends that crossed my life's path & stuck around. They are love personified.
I watched Victor's podcast tonight - the topic was interesting. I love History, and I especially love American History focusing on our hard won independence:
Then, I tried to upload a recipe post for at least an hour before crying, "uncle!": I couldn't post to any Blog Hops tonight, because InLinkz is refusing to work with my Google Chrome; I hope this is a glitch that will get worked out speedily … I would really miss my Blogs that I share with - most of them I have been interacting with for at least 20 years, they are like family. I was able to post to Blog Hops since Sunday with no issues & I've done all that I know to do to rectify the situation tonight, but nothing seems to be working: so, I am going to stop giving myself a headache, & knock off for tonight. Hopefully tomorrow will be better, in that regard.
But tonight, I'm taking my pounding head upstairs to bed - early. Thankful for Elohim's grace that carried me today … praying tomorrow will dawn easier on my live nerves.
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