IT'S ALL ABOUT WHAT YOU CHOOSE TO DO; Ocean Park-WA

The day started out dreary; gray clouds and chill creeping in - all around.

I woke up to raindrops tap-dancing on the roof above my head. Walking down the stairs to the kitchen, I noticed that Holland had been cold in the wee hours of the morning, before he came to bed:

The wet, chilly weather had Holland utilizing the warming double-thickness vest I had made for him.

I was peacefully enjoying a cup of coffee, listening to the rainfall.

Then the peacefulness was shattered: Holland woke up in fight mode, no doubt generated by the YouTube videos he filled his head and eyes with … before allowing the sandman his due.

Holland does not sleep like normal people - his brain struggles with a traumatic brain injury which occurred when he was a young child. his sleep pattern is sketchy at best, and his brain circuits - when over stimulated,  get stuck sometimes.

Right now, he's been online steadily this month, toggling between RV Life videos and political bitching videos … and his thoughts are stuck on the jeffery epstein political squawks: I don't care about it … and I do not want to hear anymore about it. And it annoys me that "people who live in glass houses are always the self-righteous ones, who joyfully jump on the hamster wheel to spin their wheels bitching, moaning, and willy-nilly hurling stones." I do not want to hear anymore about it from him, and his family. That upset him, "Then I won't talk to you anymore about anything! I'll talk with Lana, and Cal. You always bring my family into everything I want to talk about." To which I replied, "Fine - those 2 are always ready to engage in self-righteous fight mode; the 3 of you can spew your piety all over the place in Kelso and Woodland. But you might want to clean up your own backyards before looking over someone else's fence and bitching about their messes. And, I wouldn't bring your family and friends into anything if you would stop talking about them every minute of every day, excusing and whitewashing what they are doing - which isn't much different that what you are always bitching about other people doing. I d.o.n.o.t.w.a.n.t.o.t.h.e.a.r. anything more about 'despicable!' political crap, until you all start dealing with your own 'despicable!' family dramas. It's very annoying. It's very draining. My ears are bleeding from the continual barrage of shit I don't care about." Then, he started on my siblings, kids, and grandkids … and I stole all his hot air by calmly saying, "I really don't know - they could be doing all that, and possibly more. I haven't spoken with my siblings, or my children, or my grandchildren in years. They stopped talking to me years ago when I refused to whitewash their doings. All communication on their end has ceased - and I stopped reaching out. I don't miss the drama, or the inevitable fiery fallouts. And I don't want yours foisted on me, either. Unless you want to talk about the present - concerning US, with me being your primary family; and our going forward to build a Life for US, I don't care what is going on anywhere else, with anyone else: there will always be epsteins, just as there will always be drug cartels and murderous gangs. There will always be obamanites … and there will always be dysfunctional families. None of that will change despite political one-ups with the changing of the guard every 4 years. And nothing will change in families until people generate change to end generational dysfunction. All that will ever change is how we change to become better people to generate personal happiness that will affect everything and everyone around us - I have chosen that route to walk in my Life; you choose to dwell in a glass house dome, and walk a familiar dysfunctional familial path - strewn with everything you are bitching about; a path you expect me to listen about - and not comment about. That is unfair, very annoying, and is causing chaotic dysfunction in our home. You are constantly verbally dragging me into your {immediate family} dramas … instead of recognizing that I am your primary immediate family, and I am not part of those dramas - nor do I want to be. I put my childhood traumas behind me looong ago - and I was permanently kicked out of my children & grandchildren's lives because I would not embrace, and make place, for the nonsensical trauma dramas that ruins their lives - and  makes mine miserable to listen to the dribble; I like the peace that ensued. I enjoy peace in my life. I want peace in my life. I intend to have peace in my life. You are always in fight mode; disturbing any peace we may find together to build a happy home. I am tired, and worn out, by your constant need to be fighting. Please, go to your immediate family in Kelso and Woodland, and engage in self-righteous acts and angry dribble all day with them; and let me enjoy a few hours of peace in my immediate realm, until you return." His final jab, "There you go - being a victim."

I just laughed. He still doesn't know me: I've never been a victim, and I'll never be a victim; and he can't make me his victim, when the black mood is heavy on him - that, is the real issue behind all the weekend fight mode drama.

I'm not playing that childish game.

So, he'll be in Kelso Tuesday morning - he took off here, 30 minutes ago: probably on his way to Woodland.

Either way, it will be a [peaceful on the Homefront] day for me, today.

I am not making time for energy vampires, anymore - no matter how close they are to me.

Here, I received (and answered) friendly texts, briefly tapped into my FB Page - and laughed out loud when, just for fun, I played a game a friend of mine had played; and posted:

And just like that … I had confirmation to counter Holland's rant. I have never been - nor, will I ever be … "a victim!" That accusation holds no water, and that dog don't hunt. People who take the time to get to know me, KNOW victim mentality gets no free rent space in my head 😉

A text to reroute my thoughts … a friend requesting a list of the Clive Cussler Reads exchanged between us, so we avoid buying the same titles.

Rain, rain … PLEASE GO AWAY

Text from my Graysriver friend, Ramona.

Rays of sunshine on a storm cloud day …

Text from Vegas daughter-of-the-heart, Sara.

There is no point in getting unduly angry with my husband's angry outbursts. He's dealing with traumas I know nothing about. He needs a divine healing to soothe the scars, heal the wounds, and birth a new lease on life for him … and he refuses that touch from Yeshua. The familial Redmill religion has taught him that he can do no wrong; outright sin is acceptable; once saved - always saved (and he redmill mindset in regard to sin, and saved, is very loose); money is the ultimate goal - no matter how it is attained; everyone who is not a redmill is an infidel (sounds kinda muslim, to me); women are fallen creatures who must be brought to heel & marriage is disposable if the woman is rebellious; family loyalty is sacred and above everything and everyone else.

It's caveman mentality.

Hollywood Argyles - 1960 'Alley Oop' song: 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4P4SkWRFfMY&t=2s)

I am not a cavewoman.

My Neanderthal is angry with me.

And my God apparently thinks I'm badass enough to tough it out with the caveman mentality. Maybe I am … but I'm tiring of the battles; I just want peace in my life, again.

I wish our {becoming} would finally come into {being}: I for 1, am really tired of the fightful transformation metamorphosis phase.

Everyone included in my small circle of friends is at some point, dealing with fallout from their hurried lives to date; most go about healing quietly - my husband resists healing, and is always in fight mode. It can be very tiring, and taxing on the nerves.

I've come too far to let his demon angsts cause turmoil in the peaceful way I choose to live my Life: I am not going to be dragged backwards; hence the heated fallouts.

Backing back out of FB, and pushing against today's gray cloud and rainy atmosphere, I got back at work on my current project …

My current original design project … st. st. & texture sts.

My circular knitting needle came apart! Thankfully, I have another … and I can change it out, and keep keeping on.

And hopefully by Day's end, my Neanderthal will chose to come back to his cozy cave in a better frame of mind.

PRESIDENT TRUMP'S FIRST 100 DAYS; Victor Davis Hanson

“Victor Davis Hanson just exposed what the media refuses to admit about Trump's first 100 days.

This was a masterclass breakdown—and it changes everything you think you know about Trump's second term.

Victor Davis Hanson kicked off the list with the most jaw-dropping revelation of all.

In just 100 days, Trump pulled off a border miracle that the so-called experts said was impossible.

“He has completely reversed 10,000 people coming in a day, over 300,000 a month, 12,000,000 in 4 years to essentially 97. 98% of the border is secure,” Hanson said. 

“In fact, there is no open border now.”

And Trump’s just getting started.

Hanson explained that the next battle is already underway: “Now, he has pivoted to try to address the 12 million people that Joe Biden not only let in, but scattered all over the United States on often state federal local subsidy.

It’s a massive mess. But if Trump could shut the border when everyone said it couldn’t be done — what’s stopping him now?

“That's going to be a task,” Hanson admitted. “But he has shut the border. No comprehensive immigration reform, none of the things they said was necessary, none of the things that said that it was impossible, that hampered by. He just did it. We've never seen anything like it.”

He didn’t ask for permission.

He didn’t wait for Congress.

He just got it done.

Next up: energy. Hanson said Trump hasn’t just altered America’s energy strategy—he’s completely transformed it.

The Green New Deal is gone. 

The electric vehicle mandates? Dead in the water.

Instead of wasting billions on failed climate fantasies, Trump is tapping back into the energy sources that made America strong. 

Clean coal is being revived. Fracking is expanding. Oil and gas fields are being reopened. And America is once again exporting LNG to Europe, which desperately needs it.

During the Biden years, oil prices soared to $120 a barrel. 

Today, they’ve dropped by half—and Trump isn’t draining the Strategic Petroleum Reserve to fake those numbers like Biden did before the midterms. He’s preparing to refill it.

The message is clear: under Trump, energy independence isn’t a dream—it’s reality.

Then came a move that few presidents would touch.

This was a mini revolution.

Instead of dancing around the DEI issue, Trump simply walked in and ended it.

Hanson called it “the third rail”—the issue no one dares confront. But Trump didn’t hesitate.

He pointed to a Supreme Court ruling that declared race-based admissions at Harvard and UNC unconstitutional and used that momentum to wipe DEI from federal agencies and push back against its corporate grip.

“The law is on Donald Trump's side,” Hanson said. “The court decisions are on Donald Trump's side.”

And the cultural shift has been fast and dramatic. For years, Americans were told to judge people by the color of their skin. Now, Hanson said,  “We’re doing exactly the opposite of what Martin Luther King taught us.”

On the economy, Trump has shattered expectations and flipped the global trade order on its head.

“Everybody said he wiped out the stock market because he insisted on not just free trade, but fair trade,” Hanson said.

They mocked him for taking on China. Now the world is lining up to make deals.

“And he said he was going to sanction China. And he did. Now all of a sudden we have 70 countries trying to negotiate. And as I’m speaking, nations such as Italy or Japan want to make a deal,” Hanson explained.

So what’s the plan?

“A deal is they’re not going to run up surpluses at the same extent. We have a $1.1 trillion trade deficit.”

And Trump’s momentum is just beginning.

“Donald Trump is going to get in the next few weeks a few major nations. And once he does to make a deal, all the others will not want to be without a chair. When the music stops, they will want to follow. When they follow. China will be eager to negotiate because its efforts to get Europe on its side have failed.”

Trump isn’t just fixing America’s economy — he’s rewriting the global rules of the game.

On foreign policy, Trump is restoring America's strength — and making peace possible again.

“If you look very quickly abroad, Donald Trump is still trying to find peace. And no, he’s not Putin’s puppet. He’s been very tough on Putin,” Hanson said.

And Trump’s strategy is tough where it counts.

“He suggests he would have a secondary oil boycott on nations that bought Russian oil, something Biden never imagined. But he is getting frustrated by both sides, and he’s putting renewed pressure in the Middle East.”

Iran is crumbling.

And Trump isn’t playing games.

“Iran is at its weakest point. Israel is ready to take out the nuclear facilities to the extent it cannot without sophisticated heavy bombers. And Donald Trump is not looking for an optional war. He’s telling the Iranians, time is running out. Settle, dismantle.”

The Red Sea is open for navigation. The Houthis are in retreat,” Hanson explained.

There’s no appeasement here — no deals with terrorists.

“There is nobody in the United States who wants to negotiate with Hamas or Hezbollah. It’s an entirely new game.”

Meanwhile, China is starting to sweat.

“China is very worried that its companies are going to be delisted, that are fraudulent from the stock market in the United States. They’re very worried,” Hanson added.

And finally, Hanson closed with this: Trump’s first 100 days have been revolutionary.

Not since Reagan or FDR has a president driven this much change in so little time. That, Hanson said, is exactly why the system is panicking.

“No one in their right mind thought anybody would try to stage a counter-revolution and be so successful in the first hundred days.”

This isn’t just another shift in policy.

It’s the end of an era—and the beginning of something new.

- The Vigilant Fox (X)