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Showing posts with label being vulnerable in a love realtionship. Show all posts
Showing posts with label being vulnerable in a love realtionship. Show all posts

Wednesday, July 1, 2026

A WITNESSING THAT COMFORTS; Castle Rock-WA

The other day I was asked about remarriage.

The person asking had known me in my previous life with Bob - she is considering remarriage herself: she knows how much I loved Bob and how devastated I was when wife morphed into widow. She heard me say that I could never see myself with anyone but Bob - she was surprised when I did remarry … I was surprised at how easily remarriage transpired when it arrived on the scene of my new life's turning pages, unscripted & unexpected.

She is wondering how I compartmentalize that life with this present life.

Forgive the type-o's:

Looking at my life, I see blessing after blessing. MPO is that this life feels like answered prayers.

Grand Funk Railroad - 'Some Kind of Wonderful' lyrics: 
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xTuIXtXUEw4&list=RDxTuIXtXUEw4&start_radio=1)

Saturday, February 7, 2026

NATIONAL MARRIAGE WEEK #1-2026~Self-Care; Coalinga-CA

National Marriage Week 2026 will be observed from February 7 to 14. The theme for this year is "Man and Woman He Created Them: Together With Purpose."

Marriage - a Christian Marriage - is a Sacred Covenant.

A Covenant Marriage is much more than a blending of 2 lives & a setting up of a home … it is a spiritual union ideally suited to help you know Elohim's character more fully and intimately; it is a disciplined life that draws you and your spouse closer to Yeshua in ways that will hone your character to more fully example the life and love lessons He lived, exampled, & taught. The sacredness of this special intimate covenant is enriched by the guidance of the Ruach HaKo'desh as He guides you both into a deeper understanding of merciful love that reaps humble gratitude and profound thankfulness. Whether it is delightful - or difficult, your unfolding, enriching, and rewarding 3-cord-marriage will become a closer walk with Hashi'lush HaKo'desh (the Trinity). Everything about your marriage; from the history you and your spouse are creating, to the love you share, & ultimately to the forgiveness you both will learn to offer and seek - will be favored with the sacred capacity to help you grow in Yeshua's character: thus fulfilling Elohim's purpose for your Union.

During Holland's bachelor years, and during my widowing years, we had both been praying that our lives would not settle into a boring landscape as our senior years were creeping up on us - and man! Elohim delivered in a big way!

John Michael Montgomery - How Was I to Know: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mx2ToUji1Wo&list=RD1o4s1KVJaVA&index=10

Holland was a major surprise - with more machismo than I had ever experienced before. He was mega macho - tenuously balanced with a big heart full of big love.

My 5'2" self was not a surprise to Holland (he'd visually seen me decades ago & had patiently been waiting for me to show up, in the flesh) … but my 6' attitude was not foreseen; nor was it appreciated when it entered his life.

The macho driven machismo, & the short shot of whiskey in a tea cup, set us both back a pace; and seriously put out marriage in jeopardy. Holland wanted a traditional "Biblical Wife!" -  and I wanted a gentler giant to submit to. Needless to say: tensions were high, triggers were tripped, and both of us were behaving badly during those flareups.

Johnny Cash, June Carter Cash - Jackson:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TpPzk-41RJI&list=RDTpPzk-41RJI&start_radio=1

Holland was not the kind of man I was used to - he didn't give ground. on anything, for any reason. His word was Law.

I was not the kind of woman Holland was used to - I didn't step back, back down, or tremble when his voice rose & shook the rafters. I stood ground; and sometimes, gave back tit to his tat (no pun intended; this was no joking matter).

The first 2 years were rough. But I never doubted that with him, I'd always be protected, sheltered & looked after: even when he was frustrated, or angry with me. And he never doubted that with me, he'd be looked after, sheltered - hands down, and tended to: even when frustration was high and my eyes were shooting daggers.

I'd been a Wife for 44 years before widowhood demoted me: my understanding is that marriage is a sacred undertaking.

Holland had been a bachelor for decades - and raised in a testosterone driven atmosphere all of his Life: his understanding of marriage was totally clueless all the way around.

We had a LOT to learn about each other.

We had good friends who came alongside us and offered words of loving encouragement, and reminding us that the first two years of a new marriage are the hardest; and most trying on the nerves.

We also knew that Elohim Himself had orchestrated our coming together … knowing He was "for us", we anchored ourselves in Him, His unfailing Word, and trusting Yeshua's healing power.

We are building our Home's foundation this year, on the  Solid Rock: 3 CORD = Us, Elohim, & His Word. In spliced pliancy, strength is built.

We are friends. We love each other - and keeping that front and center during those 24 months of baptism by fire, we hung on.

Sometimes with fingernails that threatened to fail.

"Forgive-Forget-Move Forward" became a looping mantra.

I am - and will always be a Daughter of the Most High God first; after that, I am Holland's Wife. And being Mrs. Holland Redmill is an assignment from Heaven - a devine trust we both feel honored to be favored with.

So, when we celebrated our 3rd Year Wedding Anniversary, a month ago, Holland said, "This is the year we will begin to build a new life. I love you, Baby."

We started our New Life together 37 months ago, with hope towards a happy future; and despite the cold winds that occasionally blew through & disturbed our blissful bubble, the hope held.

February 10th, 2023 Post: ONE MONTH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY: https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2023_02_10_archive.html

I'm okay with kickstarting the New Life Dream and building a refreshed New Life. That's what a covenant marriage is - commitment, dedication, & restarts if necessary.

So far, 2026 has been very good to us.

Finishing my morning coffee - and shifting my potted plants to a sunny window … I noticed a newly emerging stem emerging from the potting soil; eventually these spindly growths will flesh out to become another interesting zig-zag shape resembling a fish skeleton. The Fishbone Cactus is not a desert cacti plant - it is actually a succulent jungle plant that grows on trees, in the crotch of jungle trees:

New growth pushing up through the potting soil.

And turning from the dining table - I caught sight of a cute little song bird touching down to perch on the hand rail alongside the front door … but flew off before I could get my camera. This is what it looked like - and this is the birdsong I wake up to every morning:

California Towhee; Almond Oasis RV Park-CA

Spring Song of the California Towhee: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZeft08Mrb8

Then,  I engaged in some lower body toning exercises. The Darebee Demeter Workout is designed to be a lower body workout that helps develop strength in muscles and tendons, ligaments, and support muscle groups. It is suitable for individuals of various fitness levels, including those who are 69 years old. The workout is non-equipment and focuses on strength training, which is generally safe for older adults. However, it is always recommended to consult with a healthcare professional before starting any new workout routine, especially if you have any pre-existing health conditions or concerns;  listen to your body & stop if pain is excessive.

Muscles used.
This workout is generally safe for most individuals, but if you have knee or back issues, it's best to consult a fitness professional for personalized guidanceForm & technique for each exercise is shown belowAim for 10 reps x2 EA exercise.
Bent Leg Extensions Kickbacks
Bent Side Leg Extensions Kick
Double Glute Flex Lift
Double Glute Lift exercise video
(https://workoutguru.fit/exercises/lying-double-glute-lift-female-video-exercise-guide-tips-641512/)
Glute Bridge
Half-Wipers
V-Extensions  Adductor Stretch
Side Lying Clamshells

My hands have been aching with overuse (because I always push the envelope when designing & working on a project), so Holland suggested we seize the sunny day, enjoy a day out of house, & bring pizza back for Supper: YES!

After supper, we were treated to a pretty sunset - and the Day was so pleasant, we left the front door open until darkness settled & the moon rose:

Lovely ending to a lovely Day; Almond Tree Oasis RV Park; Coalinga-CA

While my husband was sprawled on his recliner enjoying a short snooze, I noticed the leaves on the Amaryllis bulb are proliferating and lengthening - so, I pulled some old knitting needles, and used those as stakes to hold the leaves upright & corralled …

Amaryllis leaves staked & contained; and a Spring Book Cover slipped over tonight's read.
A Clive Cussler Novel; tonight's choice.

And when I felt my sore hands itching to reach for my WIP; I quickly grabbed a book to read and headed upstairs to lay down - keeping my self-care covenant, and treating my hands kindly.

Thursday, August 7, 2025

WAITING ON ELOHIM'S TIMING; Ocean Park-WA

The Simpson Family - 'In God's Perfect Time' song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-0VOD3j06eI)

August 6th: The Day dawned cold and wet, here in Ocean Park-WA …


We were still waiting.

Praying 🙏

LIMBO~Scott Continued; Ocean Park-WA: (https://roadgypsiesvalandholland.blogspot.com/2025/08/limboscott-continued-ocean-park-wa.html)

Anticipating.

Trusting in Elohim's perfect timing.

Hoping.

When there was a break in the weather, Holland drove to the Park Office to collect the box waiting for us there:

This love gift (ordered for me by my loving husband) was stored away until Winter Holiday time; it was ordered now because we have a physical address here for shipping and receiving.

Phone calls & texts flew back and forth from 9 AM 'til 3:55 PM:

Phone tag with various family members, was touch-n-go.

And then the call came that no one wanted to make - and no one wanted to receive 💔😪


I gave Holland some space to adjust his thoughts, feel the pain, and relax his heart, body, and mind. The past several days have been very hard for  him - and it hurt my heart to watch him struggle with the suffering 💕😢

I went on FB to thank my friends who have been holding us up in prayer; they are good friends ☝️❤️🤝 They are loving friends. I am fortunate, and very grateful to have them in my Life:


{{Thank you all for praying with … and for … us, and Scott's family. Your prayers were much appreciated and helped a lot in bearing this hard situation.

Scott's spirit is no longer this side of the blue. Holland & I both prayed that Yeshua was ministering to his spirit in that in-between time, and that Scott's spirit was receptive.

As I think on this, a {knowing} thought popped into my head, and I told Holland, "I believe Scott made it - I know in my spirit that he made it: the songs that came to mind after the first hospital visit a few days ago, were the exact same songs that were the ones that came to soothe me when Bob' spirit left Earth. And there was a new one, too, that I don't think I've heard before. A song by Jars of Clay. The lyrics were about resting in the Father's arms. These are confirmation songs Holland. I watched Bob's spirit leave his body; I know where his spirit lives … you prayed that Scott would not leave this Earth like your other siblings did, in the death grip of overdose - we both believed that Yeshua would minister to Scott's spirit and extend saving grace to him. The Psalm 91 passage you read at Scott's bedside yesterday, was the same exact passage of scripture that Elohim gave to Bob in 1981 after he died his 2nd death and came home to recover … it is the same exact scripture I quoted over laying Bob's cremains to rest in Eden Valley, on his BD, in 2019. These are confirmations. I believe that Scott will be waiting for us on the other side. You can rest easy tonight knowing he made it."

Holland is a strong man, but seeing his older brother laying in ICU hooked up to just about everything there was to hook him up to; just about did him in. He broke down at Scott's bedside and honestly declared war on the devil fighting for Scott. Holland grabbed his brother's hand and said, "I speak Life over you! You WILL LIVE and not die! You are not leaving here like the other's did - you will live and NOT die."

Yesterday, when we arrived at the hospital, Holland slid right into witnessing mode - I was momentarily surprised because Holland never presses anyone; especially when it comes to salvation necessity (I'm the fire & brimstone, he's the live & let live & don't get involved). Then, I was proud of him 👏😁 because it means he is letting go & letting Elohim work through him 😘}}

Life does come out of death.

In Elohim's perfect time.

My husband's older brother, Scott & his SIL, Lana.
Scott & Lana, with their son Jake - and his twins sons: dark-haired Jacob, & red-haired Levi.

This song showed up on FB a couple days ago … and wouldn't stay out of my thoughts, or off my lips -

Jars of Clay - 'All My Tears' song: 
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ic0Xx8hHvs&list=RD-ic0Xx8hHvs&start_radio=1)

This song is a song of deliverance. A particular favorite of mine - it's even underlined in my Bible …

Matthew Ward - 'Psalm 61' song: 
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wM3zOBd3s5A&list=RDwM3zOBd3s5A&start_radio=1)

I bought this LP a year before Bob died his 2nd death … and then it was the only LP Bob listened to for about 6 months the Fall & Winter of 2018, following his miraculous resurrection and recoup at home. This song Bob claimed as his own testimonial song. It is the song I was singing in my head while speaking the Bible passage at his Celebration of Life gathering:

Maranatha! - 'Because He Has Loved Me (Psalm 91)' song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dfm7vndIm2s&list=RDdfm7vndIm2s&start_radio=1)

This song kept running through my mind 2 nights ago, while cooking bacon for supper. And it never stopped until 3:55 PM this afternoon - 

Trace Adkins - 'Wayfaring Stranger' song: 
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iPpV1Wcsgk0&list=RDiPpV1Wcsgk0&start_radio=1)

This song popped into my thoughts while I was making the bed yesterday, after we got back home. Also, first thing this morning:

Emmylou Harris - 'Beyond The Blue' song: 
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tKY99siT8Qc)


Scott's passing is not the only grief we've known in our lives: we have both been through the mill several times over. We are survivors - we learned the hard way how to thrive. We cry … and we move forward. It's the only way we know to live this Life Elohim grants us, to it's fullest.

Holland & I ate a light supper …

Val's 4Patriots Mac, Cheese & Spam Hot Pot for 2: (https://roadgypsiesvalandholland.blogspot.com/2025/08/vals-4patriots-mac-cheese-spam-hot-pot.html)

… and are now focused on just praying whatever Elohim has for us in the near future.

Relying on Elohim's perfect timing - it can be trusted even if it doesn't match up with what we think it should. He knows best what is best for us, in the long haul.

Of that, we can be sure of.

Saturday, July 12, 2025

QUEEN BUILDING HER EMPIRE


AMEN! 👏👏👏

This Queen (moi) is building her Empire … and I will step across the backs of all the Past chicks to place the kingdom crown on my King's head 😘