Our lives have changed so much since January 7th, 2023 ... New Marriage/New Life: the blending of two into one, gets dicey at times - daily life on the road adds more dicey complications. This is our story of our life in our 5th wheel RV Home. I post about anything & everything, and if what I post can help someone else, I'm glad for the experience. But from sunrise to sunset, we live our Life for US.
I still don't know what's going to happen, but I do know I need steady Friends in my Life going forward. My Life is complicated with Mr. Complication … and I've lost a few friends this past year due to that. So, anyone on this Page who feels the need to bolt, has my understanding and "thank you's" for being with me until now.
This marriage is challenging - but it is not abusive (I know several of you will disagree): I know what abusive marriages are because my mother had one, and my sister Ramona had one; my marriage is nothing like those 2 were. Holland does not step outside of our marriage vows; and he never will. Holland does not beat me with his fists, or kick me with his boots, or throw furniture at me - and he'll never put me in a hospital with broken bones. Holland does not belittle me … or shame me in any way, in public. Holland does not subjugate me (he is, admittedly, very macho - but he is not cruel).
Holland is in a lot of physical pain; and unless Yeshua heals him, there is no relief - doctors aren't helpful, and pain meds do not truly work. Holland is also in a lot of emotional pain; childhood abandonment that forced him to join a man's workforce when he was 14 years old, and a father's refusal (as well as vicious and unsupported familial gossip) to acknowledge him and his siblings that caused (and still causes) him to suffer extreme rejection issues. The upheavals of both physical and emotional pain is intense, and there is occasional verbal fallout from that pain.
I have my own physical and emotional issues, too.
We both ride the unstable currents of trauma-induced emotions. Holland reined his current's in by self-medicating and withdrawing from the public masses. I reined mine in by a strict enforcement of a peaceful home environment. Both of our reigning in's have been tinkered with this past year and a half; self-medication and peaceful home environment have been messed with by spousal interferences as we try to make this marriage chart a smooth course that will satisfy both of us.
Elohim has given us a hard row to hoe, and sometimes when the heat is on, we want to chuck the whole thing; but when the dust settles we know we want to work the landscape together.
Strong Friends are sorely needed - and required.
I've lost a few friends this past year due to continual heatwaves that have wilted the green on the vine. So, anyone on this Page who feels the need to bolt, has my understanding.
If you stay, be forewarned that future forecasts can not guarantee a sunny outlook every day.
It's Friday, my Island of Rest - and right on cue, Holland started in on me :-(
The augment this morning was about Sturgis; I was unpacking a wardrobe box, when I pulled out his leather jacket … he immediately went into a spiel about how he got it from a guy, "a christian guy" who was at Sturgis". Now, he knows these are fighting words(to mix christianity with the worldly bullshit that goes on at Sturgis gatherings); but he kept flapping his yap, treating me like I'm a stupid woman who doesn't understand anything at all about Sturgis. His words snapped at me before he left this morning was, "It's not what you think: people go there to buy or trade motorcycles - there is no nudity, there."
Surely he jests … and I was not born yesterday.
I was sensing a LOT of bill clinton attitude in his remark.
Sturgis is a hedonistic gathering, under the guise of "motorcycle dealership": while it is true that it is a motorcycle gathering … with that comes the wild drinking, prostitution, and drug dealing, that comes with motorcycle gangs that gather there to share their motorcycle "knowledge", their gang activity, their women - and to drink themselves stupid while making drug deals. THAT IS what Sturgis is ALL ABOUT.
Boobie Flasher at Sturgis; August 1983 - during the period Holland was there. Flashing a boob IS NUDITY.
1960's Boobie paint job at Sturgis; August 1983 - during the period Holland was there. Having nipples painted, is STILL NUDITY.
And Holland's uncles and cousins never took their wives with them on their week long Sturgis orgies: there is a reason for that. Men wanting to act like bachelor's at a week-long-kegger and drug infused orgy, do not want wives tagging along.
He treats me like I am a stupid Christian woman, who has been sheltered all my life, and don't know what I am talking about when I say: "Christians and Sturgis do NOT mix - and Christians have no business going there: they can buy a motorcycle at reputable local motorcycle shops, IF that is their claim to being at Sturgis - which, I am sure is NOT the real reason they are there, at Sturgis. Witnessing for Christ? Are you serious? WHAT kind of witness do you suppose is shown when a married man claiming to be a christian drinks himself stupid and begins acting like a fool with naked 20-year old's (thinking Elohim is blind, when he's away from home), while his 40-year old wife sits at home with his children - possibly a daughter the same age as the one he's got his arm draped around at Sturgis? I can guarantee that the only witness he is showing is not one of righteous behavior; and no one is fooled - not even himself. He bites his wife's head off, back at home, because he is consumed with guilt for what he has done. And you are biting my head off now, because you know what I'm saying is truth."
1960's boobie paint jobs at Sturgis; August 7, 2001
Booty Flashers at Sturgis; August 7, 2001
Topless massage at Sturgis; August 7, 2001 - NUDITY.
Stripper Bar Tenders at Sturgis; August 09, 2021 - Ass flashing is STILL NUDITY.
Lesbianism
Boobie Flashers at Sturgis; August 10, 2001
Topless woman riding a mechanical bull at Sturgis; August 11, 2001 - activated NUDITY.
There is not a man alive that can withstand looking at boobs and booty when it's smack dab in the face; is he seriously trying to convince me that nudity was not present - and that the Redmill men, who consistently step out of line when it comes to the call of the flesh … "did not see, or look"???
Matthew 5:27-28:Yeshua said: [27] "You have heard that it was said, `You shall not commit adultery. ' [28] But I say to you that every one who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart."
The phrase "lust of the eyes" appears in the New Testament in 1 John 2:15-17, which reads … Yeshua said: "[15] Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for Elohim is not in them. [16] For everything in the world - the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life - comes not from the Father but from the world. [17] The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of Elohim lives forever."
I have mentioned many times before over the years on my Blogs, on my FB Page, and to Holland, that my first husband and I had a biker friend that lived with us for 2 years. Dave had been in a serious motorcycle wreck in Idaho, where he had surgery to place a steel plate over the top of his skull, and surgery to repair his left tibia area so gangrene didn't set in: he needed someplace to heal, so we welcomed him into our home. He had ridden with the Hell's Angels, the Gypsy Jokers, ect.; he had spent summers at Sturgis gatherings (and Holland and his family members probably at some point, crossed paths with Dave). Dave had spent time in prisons, and had the tat's to prove it. While he lived with us, he became a fast friend; respecting our Faith, and our home environment. He became a lifelong friend to us, and I trusted him 100% with our children while they were growing up, and granddaughter too, when she came along. My first husband Bob, knew a few Gypsy Joker riders in the later 1960's and mid-1970's. My own background is filled with motorcycles - I rode them, and drove them, until our daughter came into the picture. I am not ignorant of motorcycles or motorcycling life. When Dave died in 2014, he died a Christian - he said the time he spent with us in our home living the Christian Lifestyle, changed his outlook and turned his life around- he had started attending a church in Longbeach-WA, when he moved there in the late 1980's. He never rode his Harley again to Sturgis.
Holland and his family members think Sturgis is mecca (he was at his brother's house yesterday - and this is August; I'm sure Sturgis was discussed), and they don't feel that a person claiming Christianity has to change their life around - that is why Holland scraps with me every chance he gets; the devil he entertains rises up in him and he can't help himself from nitpicking me about my Faith (100% sold-out Christianity: real Christianity, not the Redmill brand) - which leads to arguing; and I'm getting better at not raising to the bait. I know he's being mean-spirited, and I also know that Elohim is dealing with him about things he doesn't want to acknowledge, or change yet.
So, while he was gone, cooling his temper down … I put on some happy Shabbat music, and continue to wait on Elohim to bring forth His Plan for our Life together.
Joshua Aaron | Return of Hope concert:
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gt-rQLmINpM)
I saw an instrument in this video that I'd never seen before, so I researched it, and found that it is called a hurdy-gurdy … I remember Donovan, a 1960's musician singing about a hurdy-gurdy man :-)
Hurdy-Gurdy Stringed Instrument
The hurdy-gurdy is a stringed instrument that produces sound by a crank-turned, rosined wheel rubbing against the strings. The wheel functions much like a violin bow, and single notes played on the instrument sound similar to those of a violin.
Lucifer did try to drive a wedge between us this morning … but Elohim won the skirmish; and I am focusing on His blessings :-D
Our home has been alcohol and drug free 2-1/2 months: (((THANK YOU, YESHUA!)))
The heart-change will take longer, but I'm sure it will happen. I'm holding on, in Faith: (((THANK YOU, YESHUA!)))
L'Chiam Mishcopah!
[ mish-pookh-uh, -paw-khuh ] noun. an entire family network comprising relatives by blood and marriage; clan.
THIS that Anne is talking about … the Church at Pergamon …ISwhat the vineyard {ministries} promotes: worldly living while claiming to follow Christ Jesus (Yeshua Ha'Mashiach).
Anything & everything is accepted into their "church", because this is a "feel good", concert minded gathering. The people there actually enter into an altered-mindset mentality; hypnotized by the droning 2-line-lyrics repetitive rock & roll music.
Salvation without repentance and holy living is what vineyard ministries embraces, preaches, and practices.
The "ministry" has not converted anyone to holy standards - BUT the "ministry", has itself, been converted to worldly standards. MANY unwise souls have been waylaid and steered onto the Highway to Hell; which has become a theme song among those attending (the term "AC/DC" is a slang term used as an adjective to describe someone who is sexually responsive to both men and women, or bisexual = I knew this in high school; when this hellish band came onto the scene!). It's very sad.
And very righteously angering!
And THAT is WHYI speak out so strongly against the vineyard doctrine, and practices.
Ep. 4 | Hope in Jesus' Charge Regarding False Teaching and Sin - Anne Graham Lotz:
I'm an American - my blood runs Red-White-& Blue, through and through.
My Hebrew ancestors were walking all over this piece of dirt before Elohim caused the continents to shift and break apart: long before the term {Pangea} was coined, my people were passing the knowledge down in Oral History - later, in Written History: The Scriptures record the History in the Book of Genesis, chapter 11 & verse19.
My American Indian ancestors were walking all over America before {America} was even a concept in European pea-brain thought process.
The radical black muslim nation of islam embraced and taught by malcom x/louis farrakhan which gave rise to the domestic muslim terrorist group, the black panthers … which was the thrust behind the {first homosexual prez, the black racist barak hussein obama and his same-sex partner, michael robinson-obama} is what is now running American Government from DC: which has completely been converted to the hellish religion of islam and does it's best to run rough-shod over The People.
I am an American - a Christian American, and my ties to this piece of land run deep: long before a demonic vision took root in the rotted mind of a camel herder of saudi arabia who later created the hellish religion of islam.
DC minions may allow themselves to by run by the evil that permiates islam, but true Americans will not; there is a revolt brewing. And it's about to spill over.
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The obamanite demonrat agenda for "America's future":
{{“Corrupt the young, get them away from religion. Get them interested in sex. Make them superficial, destroy their ruggedness. Get control of all means of publicity and thereby: Get the peoples’ mind off their government by focusing their attention on athletics, sexy books and plays, and other trivialities. Divide the people into hostile groups by constantly harping on controversial matters of no importance. Destroy the people’s faith in their natural leaders by holding up the latter to ridicule, contempt and obloquy. Always preach true democracy but seize power as fast and as ruthlessly as possible. Encourage government extravagance, destroy its credit, and produce fear with rising prices, inflation and general discontent. Foment unnecessary strikes in vital industries, encourage civil disorders and foster a soft and lenient attitude on the part of government towards such disorders. By specious argument cause the breakdown of the old moral virtues: honesty, sobriety, continence, faith in the pledged word, ruggedness. Cause the registration of all firearms on some pretext, with the view of confiscating them and leaving the population defenseless.” ~Vladimir Lenin 1921.}}
VOTE WISELY - your Country & your LIFE depends on it.
The obamanite demonrat Plan - put into effect 2009; continued forward by a brainwashed DC
The obamanite demonrats given over totally to islam and money lust, will hatefully destroy America and viciously go after Christians to satisfy the devil that drives them.
The current obamanite puppets run by the Puppet Master to carry out his diabolical Plan; 'Brainless & Cowardly'.
August 23rd: We were hoping all of yesterday for a phone call telling us that Independence was ready for pickup … we went to bed disappointed and thinking there was another unforeseen snafu which would extend our motel rent :-(
However, this morning while sitting at Woodland's 'Austin Point' beachfront, watching a fleet of salmon fishermen's boats rocking with the waves, the call finally came.
So, we hurried back to town to collect a cashier's check :-)
Going after Independence.
The bridge work on I-5 in Woodland is seriously holding traffic up; and we wondered if we'd make it to Vancouver before the repair shop closed - the call came at 1:34 PM, & we finally made the Bank at 2:30 PM… a normal 10 minute drive took nearly a full hour, and that's just in Woodland, itself!
On our way to the traffic circle, Kenny Loggins came over the airwaves - and the song seemed appropriate for the danger zone we were faced with; traffic here is very tricky, there are several wrecks a day.
And, at that particular time, Kenny Loggins came over the airwaves ;-)
BOTH freeway lanes packed - as well as the frontage street to the bank.
Backtracking the frontage street to the traffic circle, on our way to the La Center backroad; back-to-back traffic.
The song fit the mood ;-)
Kenny Loggins - 'Danger Zone' song:
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-AQT72TLhw)
Holland was sweating bullets weaving through the dicey traffic jams, and trying to make Vancouver on time - so, I suggested we take the back road through La Center, and get on the freeway there.
It worked; we made RV Pro before closing … and towed Independence behind us when we left.
Vancouver-WA from Woodland-WA; 19 min (17.5 mi) via I-5 S
Holland checked her out before we hooked up, and pulled out; the new roof looks good.
Hooking up & ready to roll ;-)
Finding a spot to park her though, was not easy. She is looooong; and most RV Parks are booked for the Labor Day Holiday coming up. Holland tried to tap storage yards- no go, there, either: we did try with RV Storage in Ridgefield, but there was no one at the gate - and the woman on the phone was no help whatsoever. So, we drove back to Woodland, and parked Independence in a spacious parking lot kitty-corner from our motel room. There was nothing else to do. We locked Independence & Betsy up tight, and went to bed hoping they were still there in the morning - and still intact.
Tucked in for the night; Woodland-WA
August 24th: We woke early, Holland dropped Independence off at Woodland's Les Schwab … then came back to help with the packing & shifting of our things from the motel room into Betsy's cab.
This stays with us, no matter what …
Les Schwab waited until about an hour before closing shop, to get to our RV; the day was half gone, and the only RV Park we could secure a space at, was back in Castle Rock; and it was the most affordable quote we'd heard from anyone - so, that's where we went :-)
Got the brakes readjusted, & a tire replaced before we headed North …
Castle Rock-WA from Woodland-WA; 27 min (28.7 mi) via I-5 N
The Cars - 'Good Times Roll' song:
(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJwTcvO5Jbc)
We'd been set up here, before. We were fairly certain that this would be our fourth time back. We like it. It's located on the I-5 Corridor, halfway between Seattle-WA to the north, and Portland-OR, to the south.
Had a bit of a wait when we arrived; Holland joined the waiting game at the Office.
I chuckled when I saw our space marker ;-)
We were happy to get set up before sundown began. We were so sore from packing and shifting things out from the motel in Woodland, that by the time we wearily climbed the stairs and dropped our things on our home's floor, we collapsed in exhaustion - and didn't see the light of day again, until around 10 AM Sunday morning ;-)
It felt so good to be in our own home, & in our own bed, again.
However, we are planning on selling Independence … and possibly Betsy, too … and setting course for a new direction of our Road Gypsy Life.
Time will tell how it pans out in the end.
We are game for anything that will weave peace into our union - and this new direction may be just the ticket.
August 25th: We opened our eyes, stretched our aching bodies, and simultaneously declared today a "lazy day." We would rent a U-Haul trailer, come Wednesday, and collect our stuff from the storage shed in Woodland, then.
This entire week had been a crazy-train ride, and emotions on all sides … along with the hasty collection of Independence and relocation, had worn us to a frazzle: all we were setting our minds to do, was relax and recover.
So, that's what we did.
We drove into Longview around 4 PM to grab a couple days' munchies, but that was pretty much the extent of pushing our bodies into action. LOL
While in Longview, we treated ourselves to a bowl apiece of Baskins Robbins Ice Cream; after grocery shopping & before heading home. It had been awhile since Holland had been there … and I'd never been there before today, so it was an enjoyable treat ;-)
After we'd been home about 2 hours, Holland was watching a YouTube video about RVing couples, and he pulled his headphones off and motioned for me to do the same; then he said, "Baby, no matter how annoyed I get at times, you know I do love you, right? So don't take it personal when I'm in pain and get snippy."I grinned, and said, "Yes. I know." Then he said, "I'm watching this video about the couple who are RVing full time, like us; and the man says - "I've been married to this woman for 55 years and she annoys the hell out of me, but I love her anyway." Holland started laughing, his eyes dancing in my direction. Smiling at the happy wonder on his face (it seems he's finally understanding that togetherness includes the good, the bad, and the ugly moments = real love relationship), I said, "That's married life, Hon."
We grinned at each other, then went back to our personal interests.
At least we are laughing about married life, now ;-)
August 26th: We woke up this morning to a text on Holland's phone asking about Independence & Betsy (Holland listed them for sale, last night); hopefully we will have a sale before the week is out - if this guy flakes out, Elohim will send someone else.
Then we drove to Woodland, to grab some things out of storage, there (one of the things was the little electric heater - it's getting nippy!): we are paid up until September 1st.
We need to stay put for a few days while the AD runs on various Sale Sites, so Holland asked for a space rent extension - and was told we can move to Space #161 and stay put until September 4th; so, that's what we did.
New space = #161, until September 4th; Castle Rock-WA
Pretty purple Fall hued leaves.
We have Plans in the works, but all of that depends on how Elohim directs our footsteps ;-)
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