CREATING MY OWN SAFE PLACE~Self Care; Ocean Park-WA

Holland hates this silence, but he is still insisting on pushing his personal ego-driven agenda 🤠 And I am still engaging in self-care - which includes silence 🦋 I am not going to  get sucked into any more fights 🐝 Saturday's asthma attack was a direct fallout from that Day's fighting - and he still does not "get it" 😕

Last night, he said, "You've changed." I said, "I haven't changed. You just never knew me, and you aren't interested in knowing me." He wanted a fight, so he went for a weak argument he thought would give me a sting, "You have a complete melt-down if I talk to a stranger - and I can't even invite people over. You just hate everyone!" And I repeated what I've been having to repeat for 2 years straight: "Well,  that's your opinion based on assumptions and falsehoods. I don't "hate" anyone, and I'm sick and tired of hearing about the freaky geek in the desert who practiced the santeria religion; you were all for hanging out with him, and literally dragging him over into our space for morning coffee … after I specifically asked you not to do either. You are not a single man anymore Holland; you have a wife now - and wives also have rights as to who encroaches on personal spaces, like the home, which you told me, right off the bat in this marriage is my domain: you specified that your domain is the truck and the outdoor area - mine, is the home space. You also know ... or you should know … if you had ever listened to anything I say, that I am particular when dealing with spirits: I do not surround myself with demonic spirits, like those that dwell around demonic religions. The santeria religion is a demonic voodoo religion, and I do not want it - or it's practitioner - around me, or in my personal space. That is my right; as well as a Christian wisdom, which leads smack dab into your claims to be a Christian, which you are not, or we would not be having these continual arguments that are always rooted in your sanctimonious and whacky religious beliefs. I haven't changed, Holland; you just have never paid attention to me; you focused on the physical and not the whole me. You don't know me, Holland - you have preconceived ideas about who you think I am; and those preconceived ideas are wrong. When we first met, I was just getting comfortable getting out and about following Bob's physical death. I was breaking loose from the heavy grieving cycle. It's true that I was mingling and socializing … but not comfortably. I was forcing myself to get comfortable in crowds. I was forcing myself to socialize. I may have seemed outgoing and personable, but in reality I’m pretty shy, and standoffish until I feel comfortable around people. I put myself out there when I have to; but I’m generally uncomfortable around people, and I actually suffer a lot of nervous anxiety going places and meeting strangers because I notice everything in my immediate surroundings. I pick up vibes other people wouldn't pick up on. I hear tones most people miss. I am in survival mode all the time, and I am aware of everything - I feel muted vibration crowds give off. What people see as confidence in me, is really false bravado born out of necessity: it gets me through the moment – but anyone paying attention, would notice that I am uncomfortably of my depth, and fighting uneasiness while engaging in activities. And I usually bolt after 20 or 30 minutes of uncomfortable interaction; I hang out longer if I feel comfortable - like I did with Jake & Crystal - who, you insist now, I have nothing more to do with; I was married for 44 years to the same man; I have life-long friends - I don't spend every minute if every day with them, and sometimes we go weeks, months, or even years without physical connection, but we are always in contact in one way, or another … and I meet strangers I strike up conversations with, and we enjoy time spent together - you would know that, if you would stick around longer that the 5 minute introduction, instead of slinking off to sit in the x4 and text with cal on the sly: clearly, I don't "hate everyone!" - I just do not want to be forced into uncomfortable situations with people whose lifestyles I will never accept, and I'm really sick of your bully tactics to get me to do that. As for people in our home … the same thing applies: if they are engaged in shady religions, or have poisonous thoughts towards me - like your awful friend cal does; then no, I do not want them in our home. And you shouldn't either; that you continue to insist that little weasel faced shark be allowed in our private domain simply because you feel the need to flex your husband muscle, tells me clearly that you do not consider Independence our home - but rather a battlefield you intend to win. You will not win this battle, but you will lose any happiness still lingering in this marriage that started out with happy thoughts until your unruly ego turned it toxic. You keep carping on your rights; well, I have rights too, and the ones I am staking my war lance on, is that I do not want to hear any more about Kelso, Woodland, or the man in the desert. If you want to invite people into our home … invite worthy people - people good for both of us; people who will bring good spirits with them so that our home environment rings with laughter and good vibrations. That you do not know any people that fit that description, is not my fault, and it should certainly not be something you feel proud of - or feel the need to talk about 24/7/365. It's annoying. Where this weird marriage goes into the future, is your choice: you can keep fighting me on issues I am never going to budge on, or you can grow up and let it all go to grow into the man you are meant to be. Your choice. But I am done fighting with you about idiotic religions and unpleasant people. I want a quiet life. I want to enjoy an easy day unfolding. I want peace in  my life, and I'm going to have it. With, or without, you in it. I know how to live a life alone - my entire childhood was spent apart from parents & siblings; I lived solo lobo after Bob's spirit left his body; or with others - specifically my children's rejection for 4 decades, in my immediate surroundings. I know how to quietly live alone while sharing a roof over my head. A 44 year marriage to 1 man also honed a confidence in me to believe that I am a worthy person who know how to give an abundance of love to a man who truly loves, honors, and cherishes the Life we are building together. You can either continue to belittle me, and tear this marriage down to prove egotistical points seeped in faulty rights … or you start treating me like a person you deem valuable - that you can jointly get on board with in the present, to help build a strong and healthy marriage where we take care of each other, for each other to move into a future. The choice is yours."

This entire 29 month marriage has been hard; I've never experienced anything like it before - my 1st husband Bob, had brain trauma damage, too, but he did not have explosive outbursts. I never know from 1 hour to the next what mood my current husband Holland, is going to exhibit. One minute he wants me to go visit his family with him … the next he's yelling at me that he doesn't want me to have anything to do with his family: one minute he's reaching across the console to hold my hand & the next minute he's yelling he wants a divorce because "You're impossible - we don't get along: you hate everyone!" If we have a great day one day … he will turn the next day into a chaotic drama. It's like he deliberately sabotages any chance of this marriage surviving. It's a crazy train ride every day.

I can't believe I'm living a life that eerily resembles 😳 my mother's - & my sister Ramona's; the only difference between those marriages and mine, is that Holland does not physically abuse me. And he never will. But the verbal abuse can get pretty intense 🤬😭

ALL my life, I have STUDIOUSLY AVOIDED domineering men. I always steered clear of neanderthal's. WHY - at this stage of my Life -  Elohim paired me with a man who needs to dominate, I can't comprehend 🙄😕😟🤦🏻‍♀️; he needs to control everything and everyone. I do NOT like to be under a man's thumb … and I will NEVER be controlled by a man. I will gladly walk alongside a full-grown man who understands that I am a capable and worthy partner; BUT I will NEVER choke on the dust of a chest-thumping/brow-beating, shouting neanderthal 😤

If a man does not allow for disagreement, individual thought and opinions; and flat out tells you that you stress him out because you are not wanting to “fall in line” with his demands to be in solidarity with any activity you find objectionable and destructive … they are shallow people; wanting their own way, and wanting to mold you into their version of acceptability.

They will never be satisfied – and there will never be enough that can be done to make you acceptable in their eyes. So, the best way to live with a man like this is to sic Elohim on him - and burn calories on working on YOU for a happier and serene you 😇🕊️

Holland has trust issues; some of them revolve around women. He has a very poor outlook on women, in general - this makes things very hard for me … I am a woman.

Holland also has trust issues concerning men - specifically the male relatives on the redmill branch. He has a LOT of familial mess, to work through.

Meanwhile, while my giant, bear of a man, sleeps upstairs 🛌, I'm downstairs in the spare room; working on self-care for myself. I did in-house exercises this morning 🏋️‍♀️ I'm being wise in my determination - I realize that I am a 68 year old senior woman, even though I do not mentally, or physically feel "elderly" … I am being mindfully careful in how I work my body. I had a pretty bad asthma episode the other day after a stressful argument with Holland, and I don't have much energy to get out for an outdoor walk, yet: hopefully by Wednesday I will be able to take the walk I've been itching to try … the opposite end of Bay Avenue, down towards the Bay - the walk goes downhill, and I will need the recharge energy to get back uphill. It's a slight hill, but will require more energy that I have right now 😉

5-lb. solid Dumbbells

Pulled into use today; my 10-lb. Kettle Ball solid weight.

Stepper

I am also fasting Mondays through Wednesdays, every week until I am satisfied with where my weight is: I have clothes on my closet I want to wear again, before I am too old to wear them - that is this year's Goal. I like them and I am not ready to replace them yet.

If I stick to this routine of exercise & 3 day a week fast, I should be where I want to be, in the clothes I want to be wearing; in about 15 to 20 weeks. That is the hopeful Plan, anyway 🤞

Today's 'meal' … halved with water, between 2 bottles; this will take me through the Day.

Intermittent Fasting for Women Over 50: What You Need to Know: https://www.webmd.com/healthy-aging/what-to-know-about-intermittent-fasting-for-women-after-50

And of course, I am also seeking spiritual guidance and Elohim's Will for my Life ✝️ 📖🙏, & the healing power of Yeshua's love as the fasting progresses.

I am working on once again, creating my own safe place.

Yeshua, my ultimate Husband loves me, He sees me, He knows what I’m going through: He comforts me.

SOCIAL MEDIA EXPOSES CA DEMS WITH RECEIPTS ON ILLEGALS

Brian Kilmead - Dem Attorney Breaks With newsom; this isn't going to end well for him. newsom will end up 'owning' LA riots: 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ucSaPNFzMDU)

California Gov. Gavin Newsom and Los Angeles Mayor Karen Bass have lambasted President Trump for the financial cost of sending troops to quell anti-ICE riots in their jurisdiction, which came with a price tag dramatically less than the bill taxpayers foot to pay for illegal immigrants in the state.

"Just an absolutely shameful use of taxpayer dollars that could be used to actually HELP people," Bass recently posted on X. "Despicable."

"$134 million that should be going to LA’s fire recovery," Newsom posted on X. "Shameful."

Many on social media responded to the posts from Newsom and Bass and commented on how illegal immigrants cost taxpayers billions of dollars in California, including White House Deputy Chief of Staff for Policy Stephen Miller. 

"Wait till you find out how many trillions we have to spend on illegal aliens," Miller posted on X in response to Newsom. 

"Now do the $9 billion you drained out of our state treasury to fund your free healthcare for illegals immigrants scheme," campaign strategist Andrew Clark posted on X.

"How many billions have you spent on illegals Gavin? It’s well into the hundreds of billions," Conservative activist and filmmaker Robby Starbuck posted on X. "THAT money should have gone to your citizens and fire recovery but you gave it to illegals.

Recent studies reviewed by Fox News Digital show that California spends at least tens of billions on illegal immigrants each year, far more than the $134 million cost of sending in federal troops to respond to rioting.

A Federation for American Immigration Reform (FAIR) cost analysis, promoted by the House Budget Committee in a 2023 press release, found that "benefits and services provided to illegal aliens in California alone in 2022" amounted to more than $22 billion. 

In a more recent cost analysis, FAIR calculated that services for illegal immigrants cost California taxpayers $31 billion per year. 

A 2019 study from FAIR found that incarceration costs of illegal immigrants going through the court process and being housed in jail cost California over $2 billion per year. 

Earlier this year, Newsom asked for an additional $2.8 billion loan to address a bloated deficit in the state's Medicaid program, which has surpassed budget expectations largely due to coverage for illegal immigrants.

Last year, California expanded Medi-Cal to cover all low-income adults ages 26 through 49, regardless of immigration status, making it the first state to do so. Roughly 1.6 million illegal immigrants are enrolled in the state's healthcare program, according to state data, and 15 million California residents are enrolled.

In addition to the amount of taxpayer dollars spent on individuals illegally in the country, a recent study by Wallethub found that California ranks nearly last in the country when it comes to return on investment for taxpayers. 

Wallethub examined state and local tax collections and then compared that with the quality of services received in education, health, safety, the economy, and infrastructure and pollution. The Golden State ranks 47th in taxpayer efficiency in the United States. 

In a statement to Fox News Digital, Assistant DHS Secretary Tricia McLaughlin fired back at California Democrats and pointed to the cost the rioters could inflict, already estimated in the millions as of Thursday, on the taxpayers in terms of property damage if not quickly quelled by federal troops.

"Governor Newsom and Mayor Bass are conveniently ignoring the high price of mass looting, rioters destroying LA’s family businesses, public property, and setting cars and other property on fire," McLaughlin said. 

L.A.P.D police chief says they are overwhelmed: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zhg9J4zieCs)

"President Trump will not stand by while these lawless rioters loot and destroy a great American city. Newsom and Bass should be thanking President Trump for providing additional support to restore law and order and stop the destruction of LA."

In a statement to Fox News Digital, Newsom Communications Director Izzy Gardon said there is an "irrefutable return on investment when Californians have access to education and healthcare."

"There’s zero return for taxpayers when Trump blows $140 million of YOUR dollars to pull troops off the border and away from wildfire prep just so they can sit idle in L.A. while he cosplays as a dictator and chases Fox News headlines. This isn’t public safety — it’s a political stunt and a disgrace."

Bass's office directed Fox News Digital to a comment the mayor made on MSNBC.

"We are a city of immigrants," Bass said. "We have entire industries that wouldn't even be able to function without immigrant labor. So this is terrible to families, but it also is a very powerful blow to the local economy if this is going to continue."

Late Thursday, a federal judge issued a temporary restraining order Thursday directing President Donald Trump to return control of the National Guard to California.

The order, which takes effect at noon Friday, said the deployment of the Guard was illegal and both violated the Tenth Amendment and exceeded Trump’s statutory authority.

The Trump administration appealed that decision and hours later the 9th U.S. Circuit Court of Appeals temporarily blocked the federal judge’s order.

Here's Why The 9th Circuit Vindicated Trump's Use of the National Guard in LA Riots:

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IBhCYA3u9dQ

The court said it would hold a hearing on the matter on June 17. 

~Fox News Digital’s Jamie Joseph and Associated Press contributed to this report

Original article source: Social media exposes CA Dems with receipts on illegals after they attack Trump for cost of riot response

WALK THE FREQUENCY OF LOVE~Self Care: Ocean Park-WA

Holland wanted to talk to me today, but I am not interested in any more fighting - and I'm not interested in him dictating the flow of the home environment, anymore: I've been doing that, and all he has done is be a tyrant.

So.

After about 4 hours of total silence, he broke silence, and started talking. About things and people he knows will incite a fight.

I counted to 10 before breaking in and saying, "Why are you going down this road? I do not want to hear any of this, and you know that. I am over here minding my own business. Being quiet. Staying out of your line of fire. I do not want to fight with you anymore about things that are not going to change." He started in with, "I have a right …" And I said, "Yes, you do. And so do I. Your rights do not get to step all over my rights." He tried another angle, "I really don't know why you are so angry."

I just looked at him for a minute before saying, "I'm not angry, Holland - I'm done; that's a big difference. Anger wastes energy and I'm done throwing away energy on a man and a situation that leaves me out of the equation. Wednesday we drove to Longview; before we left, we agreed to go visit Crystal before we came home. You stopped at the Park in Rainer-OR for a pit stop so we didn't have to stop in Kelso. When we crossed the bridge to make my eye appointment in Longview-WA, I went into the building with the belief that we'd be driving to Ryderwood when I came back out … you decided to punish me: you had it in your mind the entire trip to Longview, that this was what you intended to do. It was spiteful. It was a demeaning action. It was childish. And why all the drama? Because I did not want to spend time with people whining about impending death while committing suicide: chemo treatments are wasted on a person who continues to smoke nonstop - and walks around sucking on an oxygen tube while smoking! Sympathy is wasted on a man swollen with liver damage while continuing to drink like a fish. You just saw these people …" He broke in, "They are dying …" I broke in, "I am dying! And you don't seem to be overly concerned about me. Those people are literally killing their bodies with rebellious spirits - pretty much the same spirit you are feeding with your reckless behavior; my body is literally killing me, and my spirit is struggling to keep it alive. Big difference. You got all bent out of shape because I said I'd sit in the truck while you sat in the kitchen in Kelso filling your head with bullshit and your lungs with cigarette, and marijuana, smoke tainted air. You know my lungs can't deal with that … and you shouldn't be exposing your lungs to that, either. Why you chose this hill to stand & fight for your rights on, is beyond understanding. So, you threw a brat fit, decided all by yourself that if there was no Kelso visit … there would be no visiting at all. With anyone. I have been trying to visit Crystal for 18 months, so she can show off her new home. We had an agreement when we left Ocean Park - and you maliciously changed the Plan, simply because you wanted to have your own way. Then, you demanded that I don't have anything to do with anyone in your family - which is fine with me, in general, so letting them go is not a hardship for me; but you knew I was friends with Jake & Crystal before you were even a blip on my radar - and you know Brenda & I have become friends. What happened on Wednesday was uncalled for. I'm done. You are not trustworthy."

He actually huffed, and asked, "What does that mean?" I replied, "It means that you are not a safe place for me; I can't trust your spirit. I can't trust your actions. I can't trust your words when they tell me that you love me: love builds up - love does not destroy. Trust is essential with me - I told you that, in the beginning stages of our stepping out together. I will stay in this marriage because I obey Elohim always; I don't like at the moment, where He has placed me, but I will stay to honor Him. I am not going to fight with you anymore about people that disrespect me - including you, yourself - nor am I going to spend anymore time around people involved in questionable activity: that is not who I am; if that is what you want, then you will be spending a lot of time alone, because I will not be going with you. If you want a Wife, then you have to be a Husband. A husband treats his wife with honor and respect; he doesn't place her at the back of the line, or at the bottom of the totem pole: he doesn't blatantly disregard her, or punish her in a sanctimonious mood."

Then, because the atmosphere was so tense, and I was so stressed, I had a full-blown asthma attack. While I was standing over the sink gasping for air, and letting unchecked dribble and life-draining-tears fall down the drain - my throat was sore and swollen from the strenuous coughing, and my chest ached from the strain of struggling lungs. Holland was rushing to find an inhaler and push it into my hand, saying, "Relax, and use this." Holland's family members may have used inhalers to get stoned on … but my situation is drastically different. I wasn't wanting a junkie high. Telling me to "relax and use" the inhaler, which for me was useless in the moment, was not helpful even though he was trying to be helpful. At that particular moment, my poor body was fighting to live. I just held it, and looked at it while gasping, wheezing, coughing, and feeling my lungs straining against my aching chest. I could feel strain marks breaking out on my face as my body fought to maintain a grasp on life: I can't use the inhaler if I can't breathe - my throat and lungs need to be open, in order for the inhaler to offer me a sliver of hope for a continuing life. A junkie's experience is not the same: their airwaves are open, and their bodies are not trying to kill them.

Asthma, in a full-blown mode, is not a fun thing to be thrust into. It is not a pretty thing to see. It's frightening. It's sobering. It's seriously life-threatening.

When I mentally calmed my body down enough to utilize the inhaler, I said, "This stress needs to end Holland. The need for you to have your way, and feel righteously right when you are obviously wrong, is going to kill me one of these days. My life was pretty stress-free 2-1/2 years ago - and 37 years out of the 44 I was married to Bob, and I need it to be stress-free again, now. The fighting for fight's sake,  needs to stop. Things need to change." He asked, "What? What needs to change?" And I said, "You. You need to change. I can't take any more hostility. Or bitterness - you have got to let go of the past, and move into the present towards a future. You are stuck in a past life, constantly talking about people - dead people, due to their own suicidal tendencies, people who did really bad things to others they feel [did them wrong] … you seem proud of the serious recklessness, and get seriously angry with me if I say anything that contradicts your proud moment: these may be your family members, but they were criminally reckless, Holland, and there's nothing cute, funny, or a reason to be proud of what they did - or who they did it, to. I have a right to have an opinion on what you tell me. If you don't want to hear what I have to say … stop throwing me stuff to chew on. Stop dragging these people and their behavior into our lives and conversations; the only conversations you are ever interested in having. You have never spoken to me, or with me about the present … or the future. It's like I don't exist, except when you deem to acknowledge me for purely selfish reasons. You don't seem to understand what right and wrong is; you always try to justify the wrong; that's scary to me because I want a safe place to rest. I was raised in Hell - I need a Husband who is a safe place. You sold me a safe place when you promised me a good marriage - instead I'm living a nightmare spurred on by a Past you refuse to bury, and a self-righteous temper fed by hellish demons you will not lay to rest. You need to change. You need to start living in real time, with a real person - who happens to be the person standing before you in the moment; your wife. And the stress needs to stop. I do not want reckless people in my life. I do not want dead people, and their ridiculous past behaviors that led to their deaths, ruining my today's anymore. You  need to change … or leave, and go live in Kelso where that shit lives on eternally. Here - in this house, I want to walk in the frequency of Love; a love that lives in today, and looks towards tomorrow."

Then, I went upstairs to lay down for a little bit. Stressful situations drain what little energy I have. The inhalers make me sleepy.

When I woke up I surfed the internet, checked Blog notifications, fooled around on FB, and visited Friends FB Pages. I was happy to see that Emily's Bridal Remembrance Table had a picture of Bob, on it - Haley was able to get it from Merry, so he could be there in spirit:

And when sundown arrived, I caught the moon in frame before picking up my knitting project and listening to a golden oldie song …

The Youngbloods - 'Get Together' 1969 Lyrics: 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z-Pxd34Qp5A)

This Shabbat, I took time to reflect on my beginnings, the blessings in my journey, tending to the soil of my own soul.  This is how to remain unshakable; true peace can only be found within.

  

Peace … real peace is not just an absence of conflict - but real peace means wholeness; nothing lacking or broken.

Peace to me, means walking in the frequency of Love.

IT'S TIME NOW TO SHELF OBAMA'S MANCHURIAN CANDIDATE

Biden Cancer Allegations, Trump-Putin Media Spin, SCOTUS Victory & Cartel Chaos | May 20, 2025: 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L7srAKWvdmE&t=201s)

Call me a conspiracy theorist if that tickles your fancy, BUT I have never believed that the {biden} who stole the previous election was the REAL biden … he didn't look right; he didn't behave like the real crybaby biden behaved - I always referred to the fake biden as obama's Manchurian candidate.

The cancer "news": just as FAKE.

The Manchurian candidate is not useful anymore … so, demonrats are leaking the "news" … now, it's time to take him out; a cancer report is useful.

And Jill biden should be arrested for elder abuse.

Did Barack Obama 'Knife' Joe Biden? Bill O'Reilly on Democrat Infighting and Cognitive Decline: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TONH3WyVL0c

HOUSE OVERSIGHT LAUNCHES INVESTIGATION INTO NEWSCUM & BASS OVER LA RIOTS

The House Oversight Committee is launching an investigation into Gov. Gavin Newsom (D-CA) and Los Angeles Democratic Mayor Karen Bass as the protests over federal immigration policies continue in California.

Chairman James Comer (R-KY) and Rep. Clay Higgins (R-LA) are leading the investigation, which is requesting Attorney General Pam Bondi and FBI Director Kash Patel to provide documents on "acts of violence against law enforcement officers in California."

The lawmakers sent letters to Newsom and Bass on Friday, accusing the state leaders of protesting President Donald Trump's decision to send the National Guard and deploy Marines to California to quell the protests. Some demonstrations have resulted in violence, with cars being set on fire and people looting businesses.

"You champion California's sanctuary policies, which prevent local law enforcement's cooperation with federal immigration authorities," the lawmakers wrote. "You have also made it clear that you intend to block the objectives of the federal government, and defend aliens, regardless of their immigration status, criminal activity, anti-American views, or incitement to riot.”

Newsom and Bass are required to provide communications from June 1 to the present, no later than June 20. Among the documents requested are communications between the governor's and mayor's offices, communications with local law enforcement, and records that detail weapons being used by rioters, "(including rocks and cinderblocks)."

The Oversight Committee's investigation is the first at the congressional level into the riots, as Immigration and Customs Enforcement officers have been sweeping the streets in an effort to remove illegal immigrants.

Trump and members of his administration have threatened to arrest government officials, including Newsom, who don’t comply with White House policies and federal enforcement. Democrats, who are opposed to the ICE arrests, have sided with protesters and even been arrested outside detention facilities, including Rep. LaMonica McIver (D-NJ), who was indicted for allegedly interfering with federal police.

Sen. Alex Padilla (D-CA) was handcuffed and forced to the ground by law enforcement officials on Thursday after interrupting a press conference held by Homeland Security Secretary Kristi Noem in California, with the department accusing him of doing so “without identifying himself or having his Senate security pin on.” In a widely-circulated video, he is filmed saying, “I’m Senator Alex Padilla. I have questions for the secretary.”

The incident ignited a firestorm on Capitol Hill as Democrats demand Republican leaders denounce the administration's treatment of the senator, and Republicans accuse Padilla of wanting a viral moment for political purposes.

The Washington Examiner reached out to Newsom, Bass, Oversight Committee ranking member Stephen Lynch (D-MD), and federal law enforcement subcommittee ranking member Summer Lee (D-PA) for comment.

~Story by Rachel Schilke, Washington Examiner

SELF CARE SHABBAT; Ocean Park-WA

I'm planting my own tree.

I'm building a boat in dry sand.

Colton Dixon - 2022 'Build a Boat' with lyrics: 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ky3-duE7d4)

I'm a woman of action; sitting on my duff is not for me.

It is true that my tribe is very small … and my intimate inner circle is even smaller, but that is because I prefer trustworthy friends - hanging back and cultivating solitude when necessary doesn't send me into a tailspin.

At this point, the only being in my Life is God - and that's okay: Elohim - The Father loves & provides for me … even dispatching angels to guard me in every place & all circumstances; Yeshua is the Husband I can depend on - the Lover of my soul, my reliable Confidant, closest Companion, and Healer of whatever assails me; The Ruach HaKo'desh is my Comforter - Who leads me to steams of smooth flowing peace.

And I'm okay with that.

Last night, while Holland was sleeping, I was quietly busy with several things … Holland has trouble sleeping through the night, so when he does actually give in to sleep, I do things quietly so his body get the healing sleep it needs to function well … one of the things I did, was toning exercises. They can be spaced out to complete the sets - which is how I did them:

I went to bed around 6 AM, after he got up.

I woke up at 1'noon, and as soon as the heat started … I got dressed and went for a walk. I am not going to keep rehashing things that are never going to change.

A change of environment was called for - and I heeded the call.

I walked up the street and around 2 blocks.

It was a pleasant day for a walk about.

The area walked, was on relatively flat terrain.

I crossed Bay Avenue twice: once at Oakie's Grocery Store, turning at the first right a block down - and again turning right behind Jack's Grocery Store … where I crossed the crosswalk to circle around behind 262nd PL past the Fire Department, turning right at the end of the block; that led me back to Bay Avenue, which would lead me back home.

It felt good to be outside. In fresh air. Listening to birdsong, enjoying soft earthy scents on the breeze, liking the little surprises of color along the route, and smiling with every gentle reminder of unconditional love Elohim caught my attention with:

Little pink wild roses; petals so delicate, they look like they are made from fine textured paper.

A relaxed deer …

Douglas spirea; bloom period from June to September.

Honeysuckle in full bloom; I had a honeysuckle vine at one of my past homes.

It's a lovely day to enjoy a walk-about.

Foxglove & Calla Lilies - I used to have these flowers in my flowerbeds.

California Poppies.

Foxgloves & Shasta Daisies & Tiger Lilies; I do miss the  flowerbeds I had.

I enjoy hearing birds chatter, tweet, & sing when I'm out and about.

My walk-about route today: a circulous 2 block radius - along both sides of Bay Avenue; Ocean Park-WA

Flag (Old Glory) Bunting on all of this building's windows~Medical Center-Pharmacy; Ocean Park-WA

Bright, colorful eye-catchers.

A fading yellow rose bush determined to survive & thrive among storm damage fallout - also a timely message.

The Calla Lily scent wafting on the gentle breeze had me missing things I hadn't thought about in 2 years.

5 minutes from home, I carefully watched a busy bee (winged death to me) on a dandelion head …

River Oats - I like these.

River Oats: A Native Grass: 

(https://piedmontgardener.com/2014/07/23/river-oats-a-native-grass-worth-adding-to-your-landscape/)

Walking down the gravel road past the Park Manager's house, I couldn't resist reaching out to touch the Monkey Puzzle Tree's spiraling, spiny spikes. They are very sharp, thick and stiffly solid; like a plastic bin.

Monkey Puzzle Tree limbs, hanging over Park  Manager's fencing.

Monkey puzzle trees (also known as Chilean pine trees) are unusual-looking and long-lived conifers, with lifespans sometimes exceeding 1,000 years. Monkey puzzle trees are relatively slow-growing trees, especially in their early lives -  for the first 5 to 10 years of their growth, they stay pretty much grass level … but once they rise above the grass level, they tend to grow at a rate of about 14 inches per year. This monkey puzzle tree is very tall and very wide: it has been here in this location for a very long time.

My impulsive moment past, I continued on towards Independence.

I was feeling good about my walkabout results.

I was feeling grateful and thankful that my lungs behaved, and did not give me a single second of concern during the entire time from start to finish.

Curiosity satiated, I took my tail home.

I did pretty good today.

I had just crossed the threshold of home, when I got a good news text … God is good all the time, and all the time God is good.