EVENTUALLY EVERYTHING WILL GEL; Ocean Beach-WA

Yesterday, we were pulling stakes, and "never coming back this way, again, because there's really nothing for us here."

I was elated 👏😁 I desperately want out of WA State and all the memories that get triggered here. And, I agree that there is nothing for US here: I was glad to be cutting the apron strings and moving into a mature Life that will sustain a solid marriage

Today - as of 10 minutes ago, we're still pulling stakes … but now the waffling is starting 😒🤦🏻‍♀️ He simply cannot - or will not - leave the redmill 👹👺 trauma drama tables, where it is served up 'round the clock.

The entire family thrives on addictive behaviors: if it's not the lure of personal alcohol and drug abuses, it the depressive addiction to emotional dysfunction 😈💔 that leads to the alcohol and drug abuses. It's a hamster wheel out of control - and I chose not to spin my wheels going nowhere fast.

So, I'm pulling back 🙄, standing back 😕, and relying 🙏 on Yeshua's comforting presence ☝️🕊️ when Holland inserts 🤠 himself back into the tangled mess 😤 He is always keyed up because he amps himself up with that chaos  that greedily feeds on those aimless souls.

I choose the way of peace ✌️: I am not going to get sucked into that endless vortex of self-destruction.

It's clear to me that if I want a Life of peaceful vibes - I'm going to have to go after it, myself, for myself. I don't like being keyed up - and my husband thrives on it.

I am able to roll with my husband's continual sporadic shifts in mindset, because I walk by Faith: knowing I can rest in Yeshua's peace, and knowing that Elohim has everything under control ✝️; and has only good things in store for my Life 💖

I admit though, that is is frustrating 🤦🏻‍♀️ that Holland keeps wanting to pull us backwards 💔 instead of forwards.

Eventually, Elohim wins … so, in the meanwhile, I roll with the yo-yoing - and pray that they cease and release him ✂️, so we can get on with getting on with our Life 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨; instead of babysitting the never-ending familial chaos.

I'm still in my "boundaries & self-care" activities 🎯✨🌹 … and Holland is still in his whackadoodle redmill mindset 😈:

WHERE IT ENDS; Woodland-WA: https://roadgypsiesvalandholland.blogspot.com/2024/08/where-it-ends-woodland-wa.html

He cares; he'll learn to prioritize.

Obviously we are still sharing space 🦋💕

BACK AT THE ROOMMATE STAGE: Ocean Park-WA: https://roadgypsiesvalandholland.blogspot.com/2025/04/back-at-roommate-stage-ocean-park-wa.html

We are still married & traveling together: Holland did not physically separate - though he still keeps his private life separate from me (he is physically faithful to me; but emotionally & spiritually, he belongs to the redmills & their crazy religion).

HOPEFULLY HANGING BACK; Ocean Park-WA: https://roadgypsiesvalandholland.blogspot.com/2025/06/hopefully-hanging-back-ocean-park-wa.html

I know without a doubt that Elohim brought us together 💘 … and I will honor that, trusting 🙏 in Elohim's Plan & Yeshua's healing power.

This marriage is complex 🧐