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Tuesday, June 2, 2026

HOPE FOR THE BROKENHEARTED; Castle Rock-WA

This message from the heart, is so powerful for those of us who have felt - and are still feeling the pain of separation.

4 years ago, sitting in the back pew of a little country church building … Yeshua gave me an open-eye vision, and a Scripture that gave me hope and a promise of Elohim's faithfulness towards me & my children. I won't share the vision because it is personal. I KNOW that I know, that I know IT WILL COME TO PASS. Whether I will be alive in the flesh to see it remains to be seen: but, I will see it - one way or the other - when it happens. The Word quietly spoken to my heart as I watched that vision appear, was: "be still and watch the salvation of the Lord".

Some people may scoff.

Some people may call me a crazy old woman.

But I believe in visions. I believe in prayer. I believe in the reality of Almighty God & His saving grace.

I KNOW that I know, that I know IT WILL COME TO PASS.

How do I "know"?

I survived and thrived despite a childhood drama-trauma that should have killed me = Elohim's faithfulness & Yeshua's salvation.

My 1st husband survived 2 deaths (August 1978 = doctors paddled his heart back to life & September 1981 = Elohim literally resurrected him back to life in front of witnesses while he was being prepared for a morgue haul; dead 25 minutes and declared dead) - he was restored to me twice, and we enjoyed 35 years together following his 1981 death; before his spirit answered the Call to go Home, December 14th, 2018. When I was 6 months pregnant with Stacey, I had an open-eye vision of ALL Bob's impending deaths; even so, I admit December 14th, 2018, shook my world and though my spirit accepted and rejoiced in his graduation beyond the clouds where there is no more suffering, pain, or death … the human part of my being was seriously rattled, for several years following; but Elohim was faithful in his care towards me & never once did I slide into a depressed state = Elohim's compassion towards me, & Yeshua's saving grace towards Bob.

Our daughter, 4 years old at the time, survived a serious vaccine fallout that nearly took her life with a 106-degree temperature spike as the vaccine cocktail that was given kept morphing into something else that was attacking her immune system and keeping the doctors on staff, on their toes, to keep her alive = Elohim's faithfulness & Yeshua's salvation.

2 Grandchildren that doctors told my daughter were "never going to happen" were born; beautiful & handsome - 18 years apart. Thriving & surviving. And though I am not able to see them now … I KNOW that I WILL see them, again. At the appointed time. I prayed for Alyna & had a 100-piece Layette ready for her when she arrived. I had a vision concerning Azariah, though I didn't understand it at the time. I prayed for Liam to arrive and be a permanent presence in all their lives - I didn't know him, or his name, but I knew he'd be Alyna's husband; he is a true God-send to our family = Elohim's compassion towards me, & Yeshua's saving grace towards me and mine.

An unexpected love in my senior years - deeply true and "made to order"; a real "God-thing". Every once in awhile a storm will appear - but on the whole, it's a welcome & satisfactory union divinely inspired and orchestrated. Perhaps not a soothing ballad, and more like a dramatic opera with it's passionate ebbs and flows … but, it is what it is: Holland's 1987 prayer for a Wife & my 2021 dare prayer I never expected to come to fruition that went something like this one, thrown out to Elohim one exasperated afternoon: "Please Lord, make my friends stop praying a husband for me - I had one I loved with everything in me. There's nothing left to give anyone else & I don't want anyone else. But, I don't want to be out of Your Will either. So, if a new man is part of your Plan, then change my heart. And he'll have to be (tadadadah - I rattled off a list of must have's to Father God) & he'll have to be a Christian (an absolute must)." Holland appeared in my Life as a friend, at a fellowship gathering in the Fall of 2021. He was openly flirting the summer of 2022. And tired of waiting for the perfect moment, he whisked me off to Reno-NV to seal the deal, January 7th, 2023. All boxes on both our God List got checked. Now, we just have to remember to check ourselves when the storms blow over the landscape of our Life, with hurricane force = Elohim's faithful compassion over both of us, & Yeshua's saving grace towards US, in general.

ALL of Holland's wayward siblings lost track of the "straight & narrow path" (including Holland, himself, at times) & are now dead as a result. Holland & his younger brother Mark are the only sibling survivors. I don't know where Mark stands - but I do know that Holland's feet are being redirected back to the straight & narrow that promises Life and a lighter step through this walk on Earth. I KNOW that I know, that I know - because Holland is a direct answer in every way, to that dare prayer I made (an "impossible" dare woven into a bratty prayer uttered to shut my friend's unwanted hopes for me, down). They hoped, I dared, and Elohim shook the Heavens with laughter, thinking, "I know just the man." Holland knew me on sight when I showed up … his mother's wayward son's prayers were being answered. And I KNOW my motherly prayers concerning my wayward children, will also BE answered.

Wayward is not yet Lost.

And what is lost can be found, when the desire is strong enough ❤️

The Homespun Wife - 'When Your Children Break Your Heart':  (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zu_QRE4xQvg)

8 comments:

  1. Ooooh, this is a lovely post!

    Valerie, I am glad God brought Holland to you after your first husband passed. I went through something oddly similar back after my first fiancΓ© passed in 1983. About a month after Charlie died, I had a dream that he came to say goodbye, and as we separated after a final hug, there was another young man. God knew and now I knew, there would be someone else. That was my Charles. We will be married now 39 years in the fall. I do believe in visions and that must be one of your fruits of the Spirit. <3 Mine is just a very few dreams which I knew and know to be real answers.

    Thanks for all of your encouragement lately and now that I am here, how do I make sure to "follow you?" Also, I know I've been over off and on for a number of years (it's the Guardian Angel that always cracks me up!), did I originally find your posts when we were living in in our RV? Maybe through Jeanie at The Marmalade Gypsy or through TFT. Doesn't matter, I am just thinking out loud. ;)

    Anyway, lovely post! and I am glad you are happy after finding love a second time. Marriage is still work, no matter when it happens. I tell young folks who are newly married to remember these few things: "I love you; I'm sorry; please forgive me." And to realize that oftentimes we are just worn out and to realize the same thing with their spouse, and that to tell the other to, "Go, rest and take a nap," solves a lot of issues. Life is exhausting and as we age, I think we need more naps. ;) And more hugs!

    Plus, after working in special education as an aide with autistic/neurodivergent students, they now say that every 1/20 people have some form of autism (previously the thought was 1/150). May not be totally accurate, but it sure explains a lot of "riggidity" in people who have trouble reading people, reading faces, do better with knowing what is going on today so they can plan. I laugh because God knew that giving me a husband who most likely has level 1 autism would fit me since I grew up surrounded by people with many disabilities. The first dinner at his parents' home was my first clue: He didn't like any of his food to touch each other on the plate. He's much better about that nowadays, lol! Just no runny stuff. ;)

    Well, have a great weekend and please stop by Share Your Style #500 this week as I am having a giveaway as part of reaching 500 posts. Best wishes!

    Hugs,
    Barb :)

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    1. Thank you, Barb 😘

      We - you & I - have been Friends for quite awhile; I always enjoy your Blog posts & am always glad when your name shows up here. I have added a Followers Tab to my Page - for a while this was not available, but it is now.

      Have a funtastic weekend!

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  2. I was swinging by to say hi! This was a fascinating read. (:

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    1. Thank you; & I'm glad you swung by to say "hi" 😊

      Have a funtastic weekend!

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  3. Valerie, I'm glad you added a followers page! I imagine if you let everyone know it is there, you will have a bunch of followers soon! Especially all of your regular viewers will stop by. I know when emails pop up from blog friends, I tend to come over because it helps"trigger my brain," lol! ;)

    Enjoy the rest of your weekend, I'm back visiting and working on posts this morning since Hubby wants to finish a project up in the attic while it is cooler.

    Hugs,
    Barb :)

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  4. This is so endearing Val. God is faithful.
    Thanks so much for sharing with Sweet Tea & Friends this month Sweet friend.

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    1. Thank you, Paula … and YES - HE IS πŸ€—

      Have a funtastic week ahead 😘

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