Today was a kick back day … we didn't do more than snack and nap 😉
Holiday Cinnamon Rolls.
In between the snacking and napping, I did rouse myself enough to do a few light stretching exercises & scratch color off my scratch cards to reveal a small win 😊 - and Holland stirred himself enough to root around in Independence's basement to retrieve the propane heater and set it up in the kitchen for more heat; yes! it is that cold 😱, here. We'll burn propane during the daytime, and use electric heat during the night hours when we're sleeping.
Stepper = 3-5x week, at least 10-15 mins.
$5 winner card will be cashed in sometime in the next couple days …
Propane Heater pulled from the basement. We've been using electric heat, but a $400+ electric bill/mo. is outrageous. Propane keeps us cozy & it's much more affordable.
Today is also the day my first husband Bob, graduated to his glorious life beyond the clouds - and I honor his memory. He was a good man. He was a good husband to me; a good father & a good grandfather. I am a better person because he was in my life and loved me. People that knew him have also been positively influenced by his impact on their lives. I want always to keep those memories alive.
Of course I have remarried, and live my new life in the present - and Holland is understanding of those remembrances … but I never allow them to overshadow what we are building together.
Bob was.
Holland is; and I love Holland.
Bob was #1 in my Past Life.
Holland is #1 in my Present Life & I never want him to feel otherwise.
There is no comparison. Bob fit my life then … Holland fits my life, now 👩❤️💋👨
Today being remembrance day, I have also dove-tailed the 2025 deaths that have affected both of us, into the memories stirred up:
My Earlier Post Today~2025 LOSSES; Coalinga-CA: https://roadgypsiesvalandholland.blogspot.com/2025/12/2025-losses-coalinga-ca.html
Today is also the 1st Day of Hanukkah 2025 🕎🕯️, and I do observe the holiday - not as much in this marriage as with my first husband; but more low-key in this marriage, as my current husband really struggles with my messianic faith. I strive for peace during holiday months 🕊️
So, since I no longer have a menorah and Holland would not look favorably on the festive candle lighting … I've decided to integrate the holiday back into my life privately 🎧🎸🎶 with a flameless observance and songs listened to with headphones on:
1st night.
Peter, Paul & Mary - 'Don't Let The Light Go Out' song: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ez1uoXFbPjA)
Lyrics:
Light one candle for the Maccabee children
With thanks their light didn't die;
Light one candle for the pain they endured
When their right to exist was denied;
Light one candle for the terrible sacrifice
Justice and freedom demand;
And light one candle for the wisdom to know
That the peacemaker's time is at hand!
Chorus:
Don't let the light go out,
It's lasted for so many years!
Don't let the light go out!
Let it shine through our love and our tears!
Lyrics:
Light one candle for the strength that we need
To never become our own foe;
Light one candle for those who are suff'ring
A pain they learned so long ago;
Light one candle for all we believe in,
That anger not tear us apart;
And light one candle to bind us together
With peace as the song in our heart!
(chorus)
Lyrics:
What is the memory that's valued so highly
That we keep it alive in that flame?
What's the commitment to those who have died?
We cry out "they've not died in vain,"
We have come this far, always believing
That justice will somehow prevail;
This is the burden, This is the promise,
This is why we will not fail!
(chorus)
Don't let the light go out!
Don't let the light go out!
Don't let the light go out!
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