I'LL PLANT MY OWN TREE; Ocean Park-WA

TBI is hard to live with - the mood swings and angry outbursts are tiring and draining.

PTSD is hard to live with, & when compounded by TBI fallout … life can become very hard in a very short period of time.

Holland suffers bouts of TBI combined with PTSD; his injury happened when he was a very young child growing up in a highly dysfunctional and violent home - his older brother smacked him extremely hard in the head, with a baseball bat: sibling rivalry was always out of control in the redmill family network (father, uncles, aunts, siblings, cousins...). TBI is not something that can  be cured - it is permanent; and fallout is unpredictable. And, due to the dysfunctional family - both sides of the tree; he was forced at age 14 into premature adulthood, living on his own = additional trauma. Basically there were no mature adults in his life from beginning to end. He has trust, and self-worth issues. He has an over-inflated ego, and a fixation on controlling everything and everyone in his immediate surroundings.

My PTSD issues started when when I was a young child growing up in a highly dysfunctional and violent home. Because I was eventually loved unconditionally, I was able to rise above it and live a very happy life in a very happy marriage for 44 years … but it came to the forefront of my life again when my first Husband, Bob's body, died in the winter of 2018: it was further set into motion with my children's viciously angry abandonment following, which led to a sudden and malicious separation from my beloved grandchildren. I did manage to side-line it as I began to grow into a new life, throughout 2019 - 2023. Before I remarried, I was just coming into my own as a solo lobo feeling competent and secure in who I am - I was beginning to think I could trust some people, and was adding new friends to my very small circle of close friends; my PTSD symptoms had been pretty much put to rest. I was gaining confidence through self-love~self-care; I was feeling happy and worthy of the space I was taking up in the cycle of Life.

But my new husband is a secret keeper due to his familial dysfunctions, and I was not aware of his TBI until we were married and I was getting a first-hand experience of his abrasive mood swings and sudden angry outbursts. He is always sorry afterwards … but the things said and done during those melt-downs are hard to get past even after forgiving.

Wednesday he went too far.

Forgiveness will not cancel the overstep - for that to be laid to rest, he will need to seek Elohim's intervention. Trust has irrevocably been broken, as far as I am concerned.

I find that I cannot trust my new husband's love for me: love does not continually, & selfishly chip away at happiness; or make one feel worthless in relationship hierarchy. A husband should be his wife's safe place: I do not feel that in this marriage. I do not feel that he values my place in his life at all. I do not feel that his presence in my Life … or in this marriage … offers a sanctuary for my heart to rest. There is too much familial drama on his end; and he glories in the crazy train ride. There is too much distancing - concerning everything a normal marriage shares (in normal marriages spouses strive to make a prominent space for each other in their life; are privy to their partner's immediate information, like who their doctors are - especially in cases like Holland's COPD; decisions concerning financial decisions; vacation plans; ect.). But in this seriously warped marriage - his siblings, SIL, & friends hold too much sway in decisions that should only be shared, and decided, between the 2 of us. And there is too much need to have ultimate control over me - this I cannot have, will not tolerate, and refuse to submit to.

So, now he is isolating me from people, thinking that will bring me to heel; but, I am not a dog. Holland may consider all women bitches … but he will find it very hard indeed to break this "bitch". I have teeth - and I am not afraid to show them.

This past Wednesday's actions and outburst is going to be very hard to move on from. Aside from the blatant seize of absolute control & defining change of direction concerning a decision we had agreed on before leaving home; Holland  angrily cut me off from in-law-relatives he knows are close to my heart: 2 of his cousins were friends of mine before I even met him; and 1, I met last year on our road tripping; the rest I don't care for, so the spitefulness in that instance of forced isolation is meaningless. Intending to have his way; all the time, about everything, He continues to try to bully me … but I refuse to be controlled.

I've had enough of these childish tirades and cave man tactics.

I am taking space from this marriage that is more like a battlefield than a marriage.

I woke up this morning with this song from Valley of the Dolls running through my thoughts …

So, I looked up 🧐 the lyrics:

I'll Plant My Own Tree song lyrics

I’ll plant my own tree, and I’ll make it grow

My tree will not be just one in a row

My tree will offer shade when strangers go by;

If you’re a stranger, brother - well, so am I!

Come tomorrow, all that I see is my tree.

Oh, lord. What a sight!

Let someone stop me, and I will put up a fight!

It’s my yard, so I will try hard to welcome friends, I have yet to know.

Oh, I’ll plant my own tree!

My own tree … and I’ll make it grow!

I live every day moment-to-moment; but lately the needle seems stuck in the same groove 😟🤦🏻‍♀️- and it gets tiring 😒 to hear the same thing over and over and over, again 🙄

I'm doing the best I know to do ☝️✝️🕊️, while hoping and 🙏 the needle will move. Soon.

Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is a common condition that can develop after a traumatic event. It involves symptoms like flashbacks of traumatic events, anxiety fallout in similar situations (like angry shouting, bullying control maneuvers, closed areas with no visible escape routes, ect), a false sense of inadequacy under pressurized circumstances (like angry shouting, bullying control maneuvers, unwarranted silent treatment, & a punishing withdrawal abandonment - even for a brief period of time), avoiding situations, places and activities related to the traumatic event (very difficult to do at this moment, in this living situation).

Holland, in his TBI black moods, trips my dormant PTSD with his loud and angry shouting, and his childish, punishing silent treatments. His need to be in control, and control me, has soured an otherwise good marriage. And at this point, I'm not sure it can be salvaged.

I stay because I live my Life in obedience to Elohim's Will: He literally placed this damaged man in my Life, and short of being a convenient booty call, I will be a wife in obedience to Elohim's Will for my Life.

If Holland wants a full-on Wife, then he needs to become a full-on Husband.

My relationship with Elohim & Yeshua; and my Blogging & FB connections with friends, are my saving grace. The main treatment for PTSD is talk therapy.  But my husband does not talk with me - when he is not shouting at me, he talks at me, and around me … but he does not engage in meaningful talk with me. And I cannot talk with my husband. At any time; about anything. Any convo with Holland at all, revolves solely around him, his needs, his wants, and his directives. Period.

It's very hard to live with.

So, I have made the decision to distance myself from the constant non-stop turmoil Holland surrounds himself in, and with.

Living on borrowed time, as I am with asthma and angina complications; I don't have time to waste.

I am not going to be making time for any more chipping away - I'm going to plant my own tree … and watch it grow. Holland can join me under it's shade - or he can continue to throw shade my way. But I am going to make the most of what is left of my Life and enjoy it: with, or without, him in it: the choice is his.

First thing I did this  morning when I got downstairs, was to open the front door - wide, and air the house; stale air is not good for the brain cells or the lungs. Holland, upstairs in bed, would be warm enough under the blankets. I wanted fresh air  in my immediate environment. The door was open for about an hour.

Holland, when he woke up and drank his mug of coffee, immediately left; without a word of where he was going - again, this is typical redmill men behavior. Common courtesy never crosses their minds, and their women "don't need to know" where they are going, why they are going, who .. or where, they are going to. I've reached the point in this toxic relationship, that I really don't care anymore; he was gone for a couple hours, and the house was blessedly peaceful and quiet.

I listened to some music, watched a Congressional hearing, did a little knitting - and made a quick and easy Supper:

VAL'S 4PATRIOTS ALFREDO w-CHICKEN Recipe; Ocean Park-WA: (https://roadgypsiesvalandholland.blogspot.com/2025/06/vals-4patriots-alfredo-w-chicken-recipe.html)

Nothing, and no one, is going to stop me from finding peaceful moments in my days.

VAL'S 4PATRIOTS ALFREDO w-CHICKEN Recipe; Ocean Park-WA

Val's 4Patriots's Alfredo w-Chicken Recipe

I had a piece of left-over chicken in the freezer - a a lot of 4Patriot packaged meals on hand … so, we had a quick, easy meal tonight for Supper 👍

When we started our Road Gypsy Life, Holland immediately purchased 2 orders of 4Patriots dry food packets. 

The dehydrated food packages seemed the wisest choice, for long-term food storage in an RV.

They do come in hand - they can be eaten plain, but I like to add some spices and meats to them; so, that is what I did tonight.

4Patriot Meal packets are prepared to feed 6 to 8 people; so, I halved the packets, and vacuum sealed them for storage. This works for our needs. The dry mix packets weigh light, and are easier to store in Independence.

4x Beast Betsy & 5th Wheel Independence = Home Sweet Home; Death Valley National Park.

My  compact and efficient Galley Kitchen.

4Patriots foods have a long shelf life. Alfredo Mix; half packet = serves 3

Brussels Sprouts & buttered bread rounded out the simple offering: I like to eat a slice of buttered bread with my saucy meal … I wouldn't want to waste any of that sauce 😉

VAL'S 4PATRIOTS ALFREDO w-CHICKEN Recipe ~serves 3

1/2 packet of 4Patriots Alfredo Mix * 4 c Water * 1 lrg Chicken Breast, cooked & diced * 1 Sweet Pointed Pepper, diced * 1/4 tsp. ground Paprika * 2 cloves Garlic, pressed * 1/2 tsp. Parsley flakes * 10 large ct. Brussels Sprouts (5 per person) * Butter or margarine * medium Skillet * Steamer Pot

1) Blend paprika, parsley, & garlic:

2) Set steamer pot on stove; place brussels sprouts inside basket & bring to a boil.

Brussels Sprouts for 2

3) Place skillet on stove burner - add dry Alfredo mix & water; bring to a boil. Lower heat to medium & add remaining ingredients - cook for 15 minutes, stirring frequently.

Chocolate Sweet Pointed Pepper; for color - to mimic cooked mushrooms.

Sweet Pepper & spice-garlic blend added to noodle & sauce mix …

Gently stir to blend.

4) Remove from heat & let stand for about 5 minutes to thicken before serving.

5) Turn steamer pot off; lift brussels sprouts out of basket and let butter melt over them. Serve alongside the Chicken Alfredo.

STEVE HILTON IS A GOOD CHOICE FOR CA; Ocean Park-WA

gavin newsom ‘LOST THE PLOT,’ Says Gubernatorial Challenger: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7BHzfAiZx94)

This is GOOD news!

If Steve Hilton is throwing his hat into the mix, CA may actually have a chance of undoing all the disastrous political messes since 1970 🙏

I like Steve - he makes sense when he speaks: newscum is as looney as biden 🤪

PLEASE Elohim! Let Steve WIN the CA Election 👍

And … END SANCTUARY STATES in America - the concept was started during the 1960's Civil Rights Era - and has been totally taken out of the BIBLICAN CONCEPT; to become a weapon in the hands of people who hate American & Americans.

Jon Voight TORCHES Gavin Newsom: 'Nothing but a lying dog': (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iaFpNSt_77U)

Demonrat obamanites have IMPORTED terrorists over both Southren and Northren borders - these infiltrators are not American Citizens, they have no American Rights, and it is shameful that these evil demonrat minions are allowing Americans to terrorized in their own States, neighborhoods, government seats held by foreign sympathizers & supporters - WHILE demanding they pay the bill to house the underbelly of society that is terrorizing them! 🤬

Illegal aliens coming to American to drop babies immediately after they cross the border, have no right under American Citizenship Law! It is true the child is a "born-American" … but the parents are not - and they should not be grandfathered in through their child's birth. If demonrats are crying for families to "stay together" … then they should also understand that ILLEGAL PARENTS CAN TAKE THER CHILDREN BACK TO HOME COUNTRY WITH THEM - or stop dropping a child onto American soil to gain misguided sympathies. The child is welcomed to come back to America at any time, and live here permanently at age 18 & beyond … however, the parents need to become LEGAL CITIZENS by going through the citizenship program instead of planning to use their child as a free pass token.

Misuse and deliberate misuse  of "Constitutional Right" to thwart American Law is totally inexcusable.

Criminals asking Americans to "understand" criminal activity - and demonrat leadership (and I use those words loosely), demanding & forcing with strong-arm misuse of twisted lawfare, American Citizens to "suck it up & pay up" is ludicrous 😡

Attempting to tweak American Laws - and President Trump's upholding and enforcing American Law - by obamanites as nazi tactics … is purely demonic twaddle. It's not the same at all! These people are delusional and wickedly motivated.

WATCH LIVE: Sanctuary State Governors Tim Walz, Kathy Hochul, & JB Pritzker Testify Before The House: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HkDBGA_9Bq8)

It is RIGHT TO UTILIZED the National Guard & Marine troop IN STATES THAT FAIL to curtail violent riots and terror tactics in American cities. The obamanite [leaders] have seriously failed in their States. The LA Riots have been mentioned many times by the lying demonrat dogs … but AMERICANS CAN SEE WHAT IS HAPPENING in LA - it is not "peaceful" by any stretch of the imagination!

ALL OF THESE demonrats giving "testimony" before Congress, have their eyes on gaining the White House - they are merely pandering to the criminal element of society. They are l.y.i.n.g.d.o.g.s. consumed with Trump Derangement, egged on by barak hussein obama, fanning the flames behind the scenes. Not a single one of them spoke a single word  of truth - they were there to simply denounce President Trump, undermine American Law, and castigate the Americans that OVERWHELMINGLY VOTED for their evil nonsense to end. President Trump won the vote by black, brown, & hispanic votes - as well as caucasian votes.

They lying dogs can bark all they want, all day long if they want, BUT the only ones who are listening are the deaf-dumb-and self-retarding selves.

Steve Hilton running for the Governor seat in CA is a good thing … now, we need more good people to run for, and capture seat wins in all the demonrat infested States that are destroying their States, their cities, their streets, their legal, law-abiding people.

BREAKING: Stefanik Goes Completely Nuclear On Hochul Over Crimes Committed By Illegal Immigrants: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J12Qok8iDIU)

Sanctuary States have no place in America: God willing, they will end during this Trump Era.

TIME TO GROW UP BIG BOY OF MINE; Ocean Park-WA

MAN … if ever a song was 100% appropriate, this is the one.

Some people refuse to grow up.

They live in rebellion.

They continually chase shifting rainbows; and are never content to relax and enjoy what they already have.

The Wishing Well is a bottomless snare with an endless thirst that is never satiated.

Free - 'Wishing Well': 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fo_Y-xVxE0I)

CUTTING ABUSE~EYES HEALING; Ocean Park-WA

My eyes are healing in 2 different ways - spiritually, and physically.

I am distancing myself, and pursuing peace in the spiritual realm.

I am rejoicing in the physical realm.

I had an eye appointment in Longview-WA, this morning.

About a half hour before we were to leave here, in Ocean Park-WA, he started a big fight over morning news broadcasts involving islam in the LA mexican riots - dragging every family member and shifty-eyed friend he has, into the ridiculousness. And of course, I was the handy "hater" he focused venting his bitterness on.

Because he has trouble sleeping, he's up all night long filling his head with media bullshit that frustrates and angers him - and it lingers throughout the following Day; where the TBI kicks in because his mental resistance is weak due to lack of sleep. It's a vicious hamster wheel activity. At this point, any word spoke or action taken has him focusing laser-beam hostility in my direction. And it always boils down to his dysfunctional family and friends network.

In an environment like this, emotional triggered eggshells are always strewn and can't be avoided: they are present, and avoidance of stepping on them at some point, is pretty much impossible.

Most of what he was shouting had no relevance to the media reports: but he saw and heard, muslim references, and that angered him. He has close muslim friends. His nephew married a muslim woman, and they have adult twin sons. He has muslim sympathies that blind him to the realities of people raised in that political environment (islam is more about violent politics, than it is a religious outlook, which is also rooted in violence that ties back to the political aspect).

I have Jewish DNA, as well as Blackfoot native, and Spanish bloodlines; I did not want to hear his loud and discordant sympathies for muslims shown on live footage throwing brick chunks. I did not want to hear his self-righteous verbal darts about "criminal activities need to be shut down", when his own family members are, and have been, involved in like mattered activities … and I for sure did not want to be his handy scapegoat to unload unwarranted anger onto. I did not want to be tagged again, as "hateful!" I needed to be calm so I'd get an accurate reading on my eye exam; I did not want to have lens ordered based on a stressed-out headache/eye reading. So, I just went upstairs and made the bed while he raved on. It helped a little, to be busy.

Before the morning's verbal explosion, we had planned to visit his cousin Crystal in Ryderwood-WA; then come back to Ocean Park the long route - over Wildwood Drive hill,  through Pe Ell & Raymond-WA. I had a book I planned on leaving with Crystal, knowing she'd enjoy the read. I have hung onto this book for 18 months, trying just as long to place it in her hands. Today, was the agreed Day, to do that.

As we passed over the Astoria-Megler Bridge, the tide was low - and I was able to get a good picture of the pilings on a sand bar in the middle of the river:

Pilings out on a sandbar; crossing Astoria-Megler Bridge~WA side of Columbia River.

The Desdemona Sands: 

(https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Desdemona_Sands_Light)

Location of the Desdemona Sands & Horse Barn.

The Fishing Horses.

The Columbia’s Fishing Horses: 

(https://dailyastorian.com/2021/04/09/weekend-break-the-columbias-fishing-horses/)

The Columbia’s Fishing Horses Article: These days, the rotting pilings that sit in the middle of the Columbia River don’t seem like much at first glance. But they are the remnants of a booming cannery industry.

Near the old Desdemona Sands Lighthouse, they were considered home for teams of horses that helped fishermen catch salmon along the river. 

Commercial horse seining on the Columbia River played a vital role in the area’s economy from the 1890s through the 1940s. When the river was in full swing, dozens of men would gather near Desdemona Sands and Sand Island to collect the bounty of salmon that awaited them.

Seine fishing involves a special type of net — a seine — that hangs vertically in the water. Its bottom edge is held down by weights. The top of the net is held up by floats. The net is laid out in a U shape around schools of fish.

On the Columbia, the nets were extremely heavy. There was a 16 ounce weight tied to every foot or two of net.  Fishermen would typically use between 300 to 400 fathoms — or 1,800 to 2,400 feet — of net in the water at any given time. They were so heavy that the fishermen couldn’t haul them up themselves so they turned to horsepower instead. 

Along with providing bunkhouses for people to sleep and eat, the pilings we see today also supported horse barns floating in the water that could hold over a dozen horses. Enormous Clydesdales or Percherons would pull a seine next to fishermen wearing waders up to their chests.

The fishermen would fish with seines only when the water was low enough that they would be able to bring the horses in the sand. If the water got up to their chests and stomachs, they would lose all their pulling power so it had to be slack enough that they could use the horses’ strength. 

Two seining skiffs were required for each net. Typically three or four men worked on each boat. Sometimes up to eight fishermen could be working alongside three teams of horses to bring in such monstrous seines. A 400 fathom net could bring in between 4 and 5 tons of salmon.  The seining season only lasted from the beginning of June until the end of August so it was a clever way to bring in as many fish as possible within that period. Out of the 27 million pounds of salmon that were harvested from the river every year during this time, around 6 million of that was the product of horse seining. 

Many of the fishermen loved working around the horses and got to know their personalities over the years, since they would use the same animals each season. They worked tirelessly for six days a week, with Sunday as their only day off. Local college students would return home for the summer and work on the seining grounds to pay off their tuition for the next year. 

As time went on, Oregon and Washington state both began imposing restrictions on the kind of fishing that could take place on the Columbia. Seining was officially outlawed in 1934 in Washington and 1948 in Oregon.

The drive to Longview was blessedly quiet. I put my headphones on, closed my eyes and tuned everything out after I got a picture of the pilings.

When we got to Dr. Tack's office, the eye exam went very well - one thing did concern me though, and I'm not sure I will continue with this eye doctor: they are now using a digital holographic simulator eye exam headpiece, "with a blue ghost to guide you" … I'm not comfortable with that.

Digital holographic simulator eye exam headpiece.

BUT, I was very happy, and very comfortable being told that my eyes are "doing much better" and that I don't need to order new eyewear. I prayed about an eye healing for years - and now, it appears those prayers are being answered. SO HAPPY!

It is good to be a favored Daughter, honored by The Father: I didn't dress fancy, or wear makeup because my eyes and head was going to be fiddled with: there was no point.

I exited the Office, and got into Betsy expecting to be headed to Ryderwood … but instead, noticed that Holland was pointing Betsy back across the Columbia River, towards home in Ocean Park. Apparently, he was set on continuing his fight. I asked, "Are you serious? Are you really going to do this?" He huffed, "Yeah. I am. You nixed the visit in Kelso, so now there won't be any visiting with anyone." The 2 hour drive back was not a pleasant one, and the atmosphere had a very distinctive angry blue hue, to it, as a 2 hour fight over Holland's "family & friends" continued to dominate any and all convo - ending with a ban between any of his family members & myself.

I'm actually okay with that declaration; aside from a small handful of his family members, the rest could drop off the face of the earth, and they wouldn't be missed.

I'm sick to death of this constant fighting over people I do not particularly like - and would not have anything to do with if they were not now grafted into my Life via my new husband.

So.

When I we got back to Ocean park, and I got my laptop up and running, I contacted those few "family friends" that I have enjoyed friendships with, and ended those contacts: explaining why the severance was necessary: {{"Holland is insisting I have nothing to do with his family members … so, I'm going to have to let you go. Sorry. And, maybe in some future time, if we are all still walking this Earth, we can make contact again. But for right now, I'm worn out and worn down with the continual barrage of angry words geared towards forcing me into situations with people I do not want to be party to. You know me well enough to know that bullying won't budge me one inch TOWARDS anything, or anyone … but IT WILL CAUSE ME TO DIG MY HEELS IN 🖕 & PULL BACK & AWAY. UnFriending you has nothing to do with you personally ❤️: I just crave peace at this point in my Life 😘" & "I love you - and I'm glad to have met you, your kids, grandkids, and husband - and maybe sometime in the future, we will meet again. But right now, Holland had placed a ban on any contact with his family members. I don't bully very well, and I don't hide emotions on my face very well - so, I'm doing what I can to have peace in my Life and home. UnFriending you has nothing to do with you personally ❤️: I just crave peace at this point in my Life 😘"

EVERYONE: Holland is not a bad guy, but he does have brain injury moments that make Life hard and difficult. He is absolutely fixated on maintaining familial dysfunctions, bad company, & bad behavior patterns … and, I am not; this is causing a lot of friction between us. If I had my way, we would NEVER return back to WA State - but I don't have my way, and we keeping going through this familial and friend nonsense 🤬 every 6 months: it's been 2 years of nonstop angry words and silent treatment when he doesn't get his way. I'm tired.}}

At this point … I'm even UnFriending Holland, and taking much needed [space] from the toxicity he seems to thrive on. Sometimes love isn't enough - especially when the pool is constantly contaminated with poison barbs.

I think [space] from everything and everyone connected to my small patch of Earth, for a while, is what my battle-weary soul needs.

I know I am engaged in a spiritual battle; but I'd really like it it come to an end soon. There are a LOT of elements to this battle that will be hard to gain the victory over, because they are grasped and held onto so tightly 😪

I will never accept wrong as right - and I will never embrace every religion under the sun; I adhere ONLY to Elohim, His Word, the salvation of Yeshua, and the wisdom of the Ruach HaKo'desh = that does not make me a "hater".

I will never accept the vineyard twaddle as authentic Christianity, and I will never trust a muslim … Holland's family and friends circle is rife with both. I did not know this until after we married. I can be kind, and civil -  but that's where the buck stops; I have no desire to mingle for several hours, every week. This angers my husband.

I don't like antagonistic environments.

I don't like playing 2nd fiddle to bad influences, shady people, or questionable activity.

I don't tolerate bullying - from anyone; a difference of opinions is fine … but a forcing to comply, will have me digging my heels in and yanking at the hard-held reins.

I crave peace at this time in my Life. It took me a very long time to walk away from bad behaviors geared towards trying to force my hand and put me "in place" (this came from relatives, as well as my kids), and get comfortable with who I am. I found out that most people who come to really know me, actually like me - that was a surprising revelation after decades of being told I was worthless, irrelevant, and "hateful!" I no longer tolerate that from family members, I no longer accept that from my kids … and I flat our refuse to knuckle under to my husband's angry neanderthal behavior.

So, he is insisting I either accept his demands, or we have a parting of the ways in our personal life - and I am agreeing to taking space. I have never lowered my standards, or gave way to shifting ground on morals; and I won't go that route now. I know my worth - I know he's gonna miss me big time when he's sitting in that kitchen in Kelso, drinking homemade moonshine 1 street over, and living like a bachelor in Woodland.

Since Bob passed from this life to Life above the clouds 6-1/2 years ago, I've become a Pro at letting go of people who are either too dimwitted to know my worth … or too damned stupid in letting me go. I don't run after people anymore, and I don't waste time spinning my wheels when it comes to those who let me know I will always be standing on the outskirts of their Life.

Holland needs a real, honest-to-God, "come to Jesus" moment: until that happens, I don't see this marriage becoming a healthy … or united one.

Repentance leads to real change … which births unity.

DETHRONE TOADIE KING NEWSCUM

Video: As Newsom Lets Illegals Burn LA, Remember He Sent Armed Enforcers After Christians Who Didn't Mask 2 Year Olds: "This is a red line - and they’re crossing it," Newsom said in response to Trump sending in troops.

REMEMBER WHO THIS PIG IS 🤬

newscum doesn't give a shit about American CITIZENS - but illegal south american aliens and muslim terrorists he will stand behind, in every way possible to spit in the eye of North America & her Citizens.

And he mercilessly goes after the Christian sector of society.

newscum has it in his warped mindset, that he actually stands a chance at becoming President! Americans ARE WATCHING HOW HE IS SINGLE-HANDEDLY DESTROYING CA … and in his twisted thinking, he continues to cast his eye towards the White House, scheming every way he can to enshrine himself there.

He is a bona fide LUNATIC.

He "worried" he may "be arrested"????

HE TAUNTED THE ARM OF THE GOVERNMENT TO "COME AND GET ME!"

My June 9th Post: ‘ARREST ME’; newscum from calimexarabia: 

https://roadgypsiesvalandholland.blogspot.com/2025/06/arrest-me-newscum-from-calimexarabia.html

He has turned his back on CA Citizens, and 100% given in to mexican, chinese, and muslims who CAME HERE ILLEGALLY through his open border & open ocean front - all this was caught in camera.

He and his beetle juice looking mayor, bass, ALLOWED CA COMMUNITIES TO BURN TO THE GROUND, because biden wanted the mayor to go kiss foreign ass … and a radical native american group demanded protection for a teeny-weenie fish - no reason given, other than the natives want the dams torn down.

Pacific Palisades-CA neighborhood on Jan. 9, 2025; Holland & I were in Fortuna-AZ, watching the disaster unfold - while newscum sat on his hands and threatened President Trump.

He has passed ridiculous laws that far bypass normal smog control for vehicle owners … yet stands idlily by while CARS ARE BURNED BY ILLEGALS WHO SHOULD NOT EVEN BE IN THIS COUNTRY 😡 Cars have toxic batteries; cars have rubber tires, cars have foam rubber seating & synthetic carpeting … ALL OF THIS IS WAY MORE DANGEROUS THAN A GAS OR DEISEL MUFFLER!

Vehicles going up in flames as [peaceful] protestors gain newscum's support …

He has allowed demonrat-funded BLM & Antifa thugs to victimize & terrorize CA Citizens, and violently destroy entire business sections of CA cities - CLAIMING [peaceful riots] were taking place.

LA RIOTS~June 6 -10 2025

SHOCKING footage from warzone LA; Graffiti calling for "Death to America" appeared during the carnage - which this morning enters its fourth day: https://www.the-sun.com/news/14432044/watch-antifa-la-rioters-rocks-death-taunts-migrants/

EVERY DAY.

EVERY WEEK.

EVERY MONTH.

EVERY YEAR.

These are not peaceful people.

These are not peaceful gatherings.

And newscum is not a peaceful person: he is a political pig, snout deep in demonrat swill; so drunk on radical bullshit that he can't see straight - so he continues to destroy the State of CA, and it's legitimate citizens.

newscum has personally run the CA economy into the ground by deserting business owners, who finally had enough of his politically sectioned destruction … and fled to other business friendly States, to set up shop there. CA is for all intents and purposes, a welfare sanctuary state where illegals hold offices that used to protect American Citizens - now, they are just open doors for illegal lawlessness.

newscum IS TRULY SCUM.

He is not getting federal monies from the Trump Presidency until he straightens up and fly's right = until he ditches the disastrous [policies & laws] he forces on CA Citizens and curbs the violence on CA streets. THAT is why newscum is pissed; thanks to DOGE, the monies is he used to receiving from DC demonrats to funnel into his political war chest has dried up: and there will be NO MORE federal monies sent to CA until newscum provides SANE wildfire protections, SAFE CA streets, and a SAFE environment for business owners.

newscum is A MORON - and the only ones who support him are feckless, lawless people who like living in a needle strewn garbage & human shit-infested wasteland. newscum's ONLY claim to {fame} is that he is a toadie king to drug-crazed and zombie homeless violent criminals. He has pretty much run everyone else out of CA due to his warped agenda's and twisted ideologies.

President Trump HAS EVERY RIGHT TO OVERSTEP the limp-wristed, ass-kissing newscum - who is not protecting CA Citizens

The President's job is protect American Citizens - in every State; and if the governors and mayors of those States are criminally-minded (as in CA, NY & IL), then the President has every legal right to step over them and get the job of protection done.

DONALD Trump has warned protesters that he's "not playing around" as he doubles down on sending troops to the Los Angeles demonstrations against his immigration crackdown: 

https://www.the-sun.com/news/14424780/trump-troops-la-protests-ice-raids/

The long arm of the government is coming for him.

And I, for 1, pray to God newscum rots in prison.

THIS is WHy the obamanite demonrats want to get rid of Fetterman … he has common sense.