LIFE LATELY IS A PAIN IN THE ASS; Ocean Park-WA

Last Thursday I brought this little pro-life baby bottle home to fill with coins, and planned on returning it this Thursday … along with this book, I also brought home with me last week:

But … I will not be in Rosburg on Thursdays the rest of this month: my piriformis muscle has decided to pitch a fit and effectively put me out of commission 🥺

I'm in a lot of pain, can barely walk on my left leg without wanting to scream; needless to say - if I can't stand or creep across the floor without shooting pain, I won't be bale to drive. Having stairs in the house to deal with will hold up the healing process. This process could take weeks - possibly months, with the inside stairs to deal with. I'm praying for a SPEEDY recovery.

Basically all I can do with this tricky muscle is rest the muscle so it loosens up and relieves nerve pressure. I have to alternate laying down, sitting, and walking … without doing too much of any of it. The muscle isn't so tight this morning because I massaged it all night long when it throbbed; but yesterday I felt like I was dragging a painful wooden leg around, all day long. When it gets real bad I used to get a cortisone shot, which gave me instant relief; but can't do that this time - getting in and out of Beast Betsy would literally make me scream: she sits half my height off the ground 😳, and though I love riding in her, I can't do that today. So, I'm just doing what I can do to ease the pain.

This Post will give you an indication of how much of a leg stretch I need to get into our red beauty ;-)

"THE END STRETCH" Post: (https://jeastofeden.blogspot.com/2023/04/the-end-stretch.html)

Add to this leg pain a broken marriage pain, and life lately is a real pain in the ass.

Holland

Elle King - 'Good Thing Gone': 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tZuzhM5RoE8)

MOD ANGEL BABY BLANKETS~Crochet 15" Angel Baby Blanket Patterns

I made these little scraps of blankets months ago … but we are Road Gypsies, and I finally this morning (while we are hunkered down on the PNW peninsula), able to find the time to write these pattern directions out :-)

All four of them are using simple stitches, so they make up very quickly ;-)

#1) MOD OPENWORK & LITTLE BLOCKS~15" Angel Baby Blanket

Boy; Blue & Green.

This pattern is an original design that uses three basic crochet stitches; it is very simple, and very easy to make.

Materials: Baby Yarn - I used a solid color (MC) White = girl & Blue = boy, and a contrasting color (CC) Lullaby Variegated = girl & Green = boy; #G/6 aluminum crochet hook; scissors; tapestry needle.

Terms used:

ch = chain

sts = stitches

sc = single crochet

dc = double crochet

sl st = slip stitch

ea = each

rpt = repeat

T = turn

Row 1: Begin with MC, and make a ch of 75 sts; turn and make a sc in 2nd st from hook - sc in ea ch to end (73 sc): T

Row 2: Ch 3; dc in 2nd ch from hook, & *ch 1 - skip 1 ch -dc in next st*; rpt from * to * across row (36 ct. openwork): T

Row 3: Ch 3 & skip a st, then dc x4 - skip next st … then work as follows *dc next st - skip next st - dc x5 - skip next st*; rpt from * to * across row, ending row with dc x4 - skip next st - dc last st (12 ct blocks): T

Row 4: Rpt row 3.

MOD Openwork & Block pattern; crochet.

Repeat rows 2 through 4, working pattern as written - openwork posts on row 2 will not match posts of rows 3 & 4; it is designed that way.

Work  pattern for a length of 15", and top piece with a row of sc. EO

Sl st a decorative line across ea block center; weave in ends.

Decorative sl st across center of blocks …

Edge with CC for colorful edging as follows: at lower left side - with front of work facing you, sc in ea st around blanket making 2 sts in all corners (280 sc - including corner sts; 76 sc = top/bottom (includes the corner sts) & 64 sc down ea side).

Sc ending around entire blanket.

#2) MOD FORGET-ME-NOT ~15" Angel Baby Blanket

This pattern is an easy, simple single crochet & double crochet pattern; it works up very quickly.

MOD 15-in. Angel Baby Blanket finished ;-)

Materials: Baby Yarn - I used a solid color (MC), and a Variegated color (CC), but you could use two solids, or just work with one color; #G/6 aluminum crochet hook; scissors; tapestry needle.

Terms used:

mc = main color

cc = contrast color

ch = chain

sts = stitches

sc = single crochet

dc = double crochet

ea = each

rpt = repeat

T = turn

EO = end off

Make a ch of 62 sts. Work a foundation row of sc across; ch 3 – T.

Row 1: (1 dc, ch 2, 1 sc) in 1st st, *skip 2 sts, (2 dc, ch 2, 1 sc) in next st*; rpt from * to * across row – end 1 dc-ch 2-1 sc in last st.

Row 2 & following rows: Ch 2, (1 dc, ch 2, 1 sc) in ch 2 space of previous row, *(2 dc, ch 2, 1 sc) in ch 2 space of previous row*; rpt from * to * across row – end 1 dc-ch 2-1 sc in last st.

'Forget-Me-Not' pattern; crochet.

Rented this movie to watch while I work.

Pattern progressing nicely …

Work to a length of 15-inches.

Edge with CC as follows: at lower left side - with front of work facing you, sc in ea st around blanket making 2 sts in all corners.

Working a sc border around entire blanket …

#3) MOD FANCY STRIPES~15" Angel Baby Blanket

'Fancy Stripes' ABB; 15-in. crochet.

This pattern is another easy, simple pattern, using staggered single crochet stitches for a nicely colored effect; it works up very quickly.

Materials: Baby Yarn in two colors - a Variegated Blue (MC), and Yellow (CC); #G/6 aluminum crochet hook; scissors; tapestry needle.

Terms used:

ch = chain

sts = stitches

sc = single crochet

ea = each

rpt = repeat

T = turn

Row 1: Begin with MC, and make a ch of 62 sts; Work a foundation row of sc across; ch 1 – T.

Rows 1 & 2: With blue, sc across row. DO NOT CUT YARN - carry it up the side as you work the pattern rows.

Row 3: Attach yellow, and work across row as follows; *2 sc, 1 long sc made in the corresponding st of the previous row below*.

Row 4: With yellow, sc across row. DO NOT CUT YARN - carry it up the side as you work the pattern rows.

Rows 5 & 6: Picking up blue again, sc across row.

Row 7: Picking up yellow again, work across row as follows; 1 sc, *1 long sc made in the corresponding st of the previous row below, 1 sc in EA of the two end sts*.

Row 8: With yellow, sc across row.

Continue in set pattern for a length of 15". EO.

Edge with CC as follows: at lower left side - with front of work facing you, sc in ea st around blanket making 2 sts in all corners.

#4) MOD RIDGE STITCH~15" Angel Baby Blanket

This pattern is an easy, simple single crochet pattern throughout; it works up very quickly.

15" Angel Baby Blanket

Materials: Baby Yarn - I used three solid colors: Mint Green, White & Baby Blue, (but you could use a single color … or two solids); #G/6 aluminum crochet hook; scissors; tapestry needle.

Terms used:

ch = chain

sts = stitches

sc = single crochet

sl st = slip stitch

ea = each

rpt = repeat

T = turn

Row 1: Begin with MC, and make a ch of 62 sts; Work a foundation row of sc across; ch 1 – T.

Row 2: *Work 1 sc, inserting hook into back loop at the head of EA st of previous row* across row; ch-T

Sc in back loop of previous row …

If using different colors = work 2 rows same color.

DO NOT CUT YARNS = carry each thread up backside of work.

Work carried yarn into pattern ON BACKSIDE of work.

Continue in set pattern for a length of 15". EO.

Edge with CC as follows: at lower left side - with front of work facing you, sc in ea st around blanket making 2 sts in all corners.

Sc around entire ABB.

USA STRONGARMS CHINA CO. NEAR WY NUKE ARSENAL TO SELL OUT

It's a little too little - a little too late: typical of the obiden admin …

USA Congress members sleeping with chinese spies.

The biden cartel working for decades with chinese cartels, in china.

USA Military personnel holding hands with foreign coup leaders and slipping military secrets under the radar.

This {crackdown} is simply an Election Year game, designed to make the highly INEFFECTIVE obiden coup sellable to the tunnel-vision political sheep.

US to force Chinese company near nuke arsenal in Wyoming to sell its land:  (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBN585Ij_Eg)

Also: 'Mystery company' buys $800M of land near California's Travis AFB: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8mkZ28AiOF8)

=Mystery group purchases 50,000+ acres in Solano County. Why it's raising federal concerns: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BudiRNUFF08)

=Why is China buying US farmland? Morgan Ortagus explains: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XcfSJJhLtG0)

Good News!: Estimated 2.34 Billion Metric Tons of Rare Earth Minerals Discovered In USA: (https://www.theearthandi.org/post/estimated-2-34-billion-metric-tons-of-rare-earth-minerals-discovered-in-us#:~:text=Known%20for%20its%20natural%20beauty,near%20Wheatland%2C%20a%20town%20in)

HOLLAND'S SEPARATION; Ocean Park-WA

Holland has left me … but he is keeping his old life; and everything that went with it.

Currently, we are sharing the same space because there really is nothing else to do - but our lives are 100% moving in different directions: he is permanently tied to a lost childhood, a cultic Redmill Religion, the oak point craziness, argumentative relatives, past broken relationships, a Neanderthal mindset, a narcissistic mindset, and a Vicodin addiction.

I knew about the redmill religion, and the oak point craziness … but he effectively hid the rest from me until I signed on the dotted line.

NOT COOL 🤬

I have tried to overlook the Vicodin addiction because I know he is in pain - but exactly how much pain is not clear. Personally I do not believe it justifies popping narcotics like candy. He disagrees.

I have met very few of his "friends" … he has begrudgingly met 5 of mine.

He does "not want to be where it is cold, wet, and snowy"; my dream had always been to be a road gypsy, and Holland has more than fulfilled that dream for me - we've covered all of the West, mid-west, CA & AZ.

What happens now, I don't know, but I do KNOW that I do not want to be on the road full-time anymore with a man who is argumentative 24/7/365.

I do not want to constantly be berated because he is still on the Past Life Treadmill where someone (family, friend turned foe, ex-girlfriend, ect.) "did him wrong" = therefore I might, too. It's nutty living.

All I want is to live a peaceful life where laughter, love, and the friendly touch is more important than getting hopeless lost in The Past.

Holland does not let me into his Life.

He keeps things from me - KNOWING that truthfulness is a #1 BIGGIE with me.

I married Holland in good faith, but honestly considering everything he constantly carps about, I can not fathom why he married me when he daily finds things wrong with e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.I.s.a.y.a.n.d.d.o. I have come to understand that this is {the Redmill Way} … and perhaps THAT is the main problem: he is behaving exactly as the Redmill family does & I will never be a Redmill woman who accepts being treated badly/and or treats others badly.

I could say more, but I won't - what I've already shared is enough to help those who keep asking me how I am doing … see past the smile I wear in public. What I've shared in this post will also help those who are praying for me (or US; whatever is the case when they are praying) understand the warfare I have been dealing with since February 2023.

I was up-front with Holland before we married that I "do not do divorce; I marry for life": he was not up-front with me, concerning anything. 

For a solid year he has been separating himself from me on a monthly basis.

Today is the final straw. I can't - no, let me REPHRASE - I will not do this anymore. For a solid year I have cried, smiled when I felt like crying, and tried to put a good face on a bad situation. But, I deserve better. I am better. And I'm moving on like he has (he wants a separation where he "doesn't have to answer to anyone": now he has one).

He's gonna miss me, bigtime.

This is not a "poor pitiful me, feel sorry for me" Post. This is a clarification Post for all the inquiring minds that have known for a while that things have been off-kilter. Now you know.

TIMES OF THE GENTILES ARE WRAPPING UP – Amir Tsarfati; The Olive Tree Ministries

What does it mean that the Times of the Gentiles are coming to an end?

THE ULTIMATE BAIT & SWITCH– Amir Tsarfati; The Olive Tree Ministries:  (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=32fzloM6Hgw)

A JOURNEY OF THE SPIRIT; Shabbat 2024~Ocean Beach-WA

My husband Holland has muslim friends, and family members: I am a Jew. muslims in general, make me nervous … and Holland knew this about me before we married. Since then, I have met Tim & his sister, Arta - and her 2 boys … Tim is a funny guy, and one of Holland's longest lasting friendships; Arta is also a fun person to be around, and her boys are handsome, gracious, and kind young men. But, given the way they are all living, and eating, they are not practicing muslims - Tim and Arta were born in a muslim country, but the boys were born in America, living fully American lifestyles.

My new husband is putting a lot of things, and people, in my Life that I normally would avoid - but ultimately, it is Elohim that has put these things in my Life; so, I will learn what needs to be learned, grow through experiences, and lend myself where necessary.

Last week, I was visiting some friends that I have not seen in about 18 months - last time I saw them was before Holland and I got together, married, and started touring America as Road Gypsies:

We'll be here for a couple of weeks; Ocean Park-WA.

PARPALA ROAD Post: (https://roadgypsiesvalandholland.blogspot.com/2024/05/parpala-roadnaselle-wa.html)

Yesterday I was with my friends again; and one of them mentioned a book she just finished reading, and she said it may be helpful to me - so, it came home with me. I have started reading this book, and so far it promises to be enlightening.

Holland has muslim friends & family - Beckalyn gave me this book to read.

Today is the Sabbath - a 24 hour 'island of rest' for me: a time of joy, good food & wine - one day a week Jews (even Messianic Jews like me) determine to declare a rest from the hustle and bustle around us, and purposefully usher in a truce between ourselves and the world.

I will be peacefully relaxing most of this Day, in acknowledgment of the Prince of Peace/Lord of the Sabbath.

I will be reading more chapters of this testimonial book.

I will be open to understanding - I will never accept muslim hate or terrorism, but I will prayerfully try to embrace those caught up in religious brainwashing, trusting Elohim for their deliverance into true freedom in Yeshua's love poured out on all mankind that will accept it.

I will enjoy the meal my thoughtful husband prepared for me, in advance - creating his own recipes relaxes him, and I am his willing guinea pig: they are always originally delicious :-)

Holland basically prepares all our meals; he enjoys cooking, and he's good at it ;-)

I will be resting in the knowledge of the Ruach HaKo'desh at work.

PEACE LIKE A RIVER

May 16th: There are days that everything is coming up roses.

And then … there are days when my daily mantra is, "everything will work out; everything will be fine."

The past 2 days have been mantra days :-(

I'm finding that it doesn't take much for Holland to set flame to whatever goodness is sparking; and cause an inferno. He gets uncomfortable when things are going good between us - and he deliberately upsets the tenuous balance.

I know why he does this. We are engaged in a spiritual warfare; that happens when people get caught up in the vineyard religion - Holland's entire family is caught up in the vineyard religion and the neanderthal he-man {thou shalt not question thy husband's decision} snarkiness sneaks in and gets a grip on him.

I also know that when he stays in that spin cycle, anything I do & everything I say will be grounds for him to start an argument: it's best if I distance myself for awhile before things are said that can't be unsaid: at the boiling point, too much has already been said, and the best way I know to zip my lip … is to grab the keys and go for a drive.

Going for a drive was harder while being a road gypsy because I didn't know the State highway - or the byways, which I prefer.

But here, in WA (and even in OR), it's a different story. Plus, I have friends here, where I can just sit back and unwind for an hour or so.

Yesterday afternoon, I jumped in Betsy and used my MAD $$ to fill her greedy tank before I left the peninsula far behind me for most of the daylight hours: I drove several hours to visit with a family I haven't seen in 18 months. It felt good to escape the battlefield and enjoy companionable convo. When I got back home, it was evening, and silence reigned. Thank the Lord.

Vestal Goodman - 'Til the Storm Passes By': (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NSvAmnaQ8X0)

Today, I kept my Thursday get-together in Rosburg - I almost canceled because I know my feelings show on my face, and I didn't want to answer any questions centered around if I'm feeling okay.

No - I'm not: but I will be. I know that Elohim is working things out in Holland's life, and that eventually Holland will decide that it is better and easier to give in to Elohim's Plan than to fight against it.

For me …  I intend to win the challenge Holland is determined to engage in. I may be a military brat, but I do not like living my life in a battlefield environment.

I have decided to go with the flow of peace in my life: I dressed in a sequined top, put a little color on my game face; and went to the weekly get-together.

Valley Bible Church, Rosburg-WA from Ocean Park-WA; 54 min (42.6 mi) via Sandridge Rd, US-101 N and WA-4 E

The Isaacs - Peace Like a River : 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pqpPyHc7gB0)

The get-together was fun.

It was a loving environment.

It was enlightening.

It was encouraging.

It was peaceful.

It was welcome sanctuary for 2 hours.

Holland is not a violent man, praise God … but he is an argumentative religious man - meaning he embraces all religions per vineyard teaching; and he focuses on religious doctrines of alpha-male tendencies as taught in the united pentecostal church - this teaching coupled with his muslim friends' total disregard for women causes a great deal of friction between us. These religious doctrines encourage men to control their women. I do not feel the need to be controlled.

I do not like neanderthal men; and until Holland married me, he never showed his cave-man tendencies. I don't like it - and he doesn't like that I don't like it. Hence the battleground atmosphere when he gets on a roll.

Holland told me he was a Christian - he is not displaying Christian behavior.

I am a Christian … and I can be a good wife to a good man (I was a good wife for 44 years); but, I refuse to be subjugated by anyone, for any reason.

I know that nothing happens to me that Elohim is not aware of: if He brought me to it, He will bring me through it.

I know that all things work together for the good of those who love Yeshua Ha'Mashiach, and have been called according to HIs purpose (Romans 8:28).

I know that Elohim moved Heaven and Earth to get Holland and I together; this marriage is a definite 'God thing'.

I know that when this storm passes, Holland will be a better version of himself, and we will be stronger as a couple. Holland really is a good man underneath all that religiosity - I can be a good wife to him, if he can escape the vineyard deathtrap, and let me.

So, when Beckalyn was telling those of us gathered this morning, about a book she has just finished reading … it sounded like something that may help defuse the spiritual warfare flames at home.

Holland has muslim friends & family - Beckalyn gave me this book to read.

When I got home, Holland claimed some time in Betsy - and I cleaned house humming 'peace like a river'; and I worked on a new design while he was gone.

A new pattern & new design.

I intend to win this battle: and the spoils will be handed over to the Lord ;-)